Frustrated...

I have been thinking... Why is it so difficult to get ppl to be committed for svc n cg? And coming on time, coming early... Why is it so difficult? Why did I even bother to rush down every Sun morning all the way to expo when i know that I can always go to the Jurong one cos it's nearer? I begin to ask God to show me... I remembered... This is called the fear of the Lord... And the love for God...

We always say that we love God, always say that I want to serve you and obey you in everything that we do. But how many ppl can really say that they have done that and that they are still doing it? Ask yourself... Are you more and more in love with God each day? Can the ppl ard you see the love you have for God? Is it evident? Wait... I'm not asking you to put up a show for ppl to see... But i think actions really speaks louder than words... All the things which you tell God, are you serious abt getting them done? Have you taken some things for granted along the way?

I begin to question myself, why does the cg feels so dead... Why are things not happening? Why are things not being done? How come results of things are different? God begins to reveal... Cos these ppl are satisfied where they are, they do not have a strong desire to breakthrough... That's why things are not happening... It's always the same old reasons that they say... My parents, my school, my project, my work... Come on la... Who dun have parents? If not parents then my guardian... Who dun have to go sch or work? Does that mean that students and working ppl cannot come church? Cannot serve God? Only ppl who have nothing better to do, they'll be in church... HELLO!!! Can you pls wake up your idea? You are the one who is not breaking through... ANd you look at other ppl who can make it and say these ppl muz have nothing to do that's why they can do the things that they are doing... HOW WRONG and HOW SAD...

You are really really stuck... Unless God comes and bring a miracle... I think u no hope le... Hahaha... Ok, enough of my extreme analogy... But I feel that it's really quite sad... You're stuck in a rut... ANd you are happy that you remain there, cos it's your comfort zone... But come on la... You want to drink milk all the rest of your life? Can you like pls wake up your idea and grow up? Make a decision... The year has just started, you can afford to stretch yourself a little... If you really want that breakthrough, pray! Fast! And then ACT!!! It doesnt stop at telling others abt your problem only... you are the problem solver!!!

Haiz... Just feel so frustrated... So drained, so tired, so discouraged and so sian... I think its the nite terror.. Hahaha... Tml back to work... God, renew my mind... Help me to begin to enjoy going to work... Help me to go thru each day happily... And give me good health during this season of my life... I do not ask for easier year, but I pray that your grace fill my life more and more such that it will not be so painful to go thru this year... ANd God, bring increase and dis-satisfaction to the cg... Even single one of us, not just the cgl and some members... But EVERY SINGLE ONE to start to have the FEAR of GOD in their lives that we want to walk rite with GOD, we want a breakthrough in the group... Where every member is an abled person, who can go for missions anytime... This then is an army of God... Ppl who are trained and ever ready to go all out for God...

In the 1st CGM of the year, God spoke to me that He is going to pour new wine into our CG... But only those ppl who have new wineskin will be able to receive this new wine... For those with old wineskin, they will not be able to contain the next flow of wine... And that we need to raise up ppl who have renewed mindset... And for now, these 1st few months, it's a time to help as many ppl in the cg as possible to begin to trade in their old wineskin... This is something which cannot be forced, if you want the new wine, you got to be the one trading in the old wineskin for the new one... You cannot appoint a proxy... God, teach me to inspire, help me to impart that things will start to change for the better in the cg... Only you can cause a change... I do not know how, but God i'm willing to be trained and train.... Teach me, guide me, take my hand and bring me there...