Emotional Roller Coaster

Been feeling as if I'm on an emotional roller coaster recently... Maybe cos of the upcoming changes that are going to happen in my life. Looking forward to it, but on the other hand, a little fearful cos it's a totally new area? And I have been giving myself mental pressure that I need to perform there... Haiz... I think no one understands that kind of butterfly feeling in me now... I shouldnt be feeling this way, I know I should have peace. Hmmm... Yes, there's peace but still that jittery feeling still exists.

Ken has been asking me questions like tell me how u feeling, wat u thinking... My mind just went blank... Haiz... I wanna talk, I wanna share, but there seems to be so much change that it feels a little overwhelming... Haiz... Why why why? Weird...

Anyway... I wanna get married soon... Feel overwhelmed by the idea also... Hahaha... Maybe we'll bring forward by 1 year!!! Hmmmm, it means next year... Faints... Dunno wat to do to get started... Overwhelmed... I wanna get off the roller coaster... Zzzz.... Dun like this... Haiz...