Reflections...

Been taking things slower now... Trying to see things from a higher point of view... Helping to fine tune the ppl around me, who are open to my discipleship... N at the same time, working on my weak areas. Finding feedback from my leaders to improve myself. This process doesnt stop. If it stops or even slows down, it means my heart has grown cold... I pray that this will nvr happen... Like Qi, I got to guard my heart and mind... Doesnt mean that being church for a longer period of time means that I am shielded from all these temptations... Yep...

I went for the morning pm at HOG just now... Reached late, but the whole place was full.... Very nice place, but too small to contain everyone of us... I was standing but I really dun mind... The presence of God was so strong... So easy to get into the presence of God... I was weeping before God... Tears just kept flowing like beyond control.. I met Dev n we prayed for the CG... Can feel that she shares the burden... I pray that more ppl can rise up n be responsible, loving and the whole CG be united... Met a few other leaders there n some friends... Chatted with them n it was great fellowship... Spoke to Kelvin Chua, Rachael, Weemin, Khen Theen (my 1st CGL - a very inspiring man), Pst Tan! Yep, he asked me abt the PM on his way out of the hall. Saw Pst Zhuang, Pst Audrey and Pst Aries as well... Looking at them, it's like looking at a group of ppl who have grown up in the Lord together, closest of friends... I pray that next time when our youths have all started working, we will still see each other in church, and meet up once in a while, all still planted and doing their part for the house of God...

Went for breakfast with Dev at Delifrance then we parted at 10... Hahha... But it was great time spent together... I pray that the things I shared with her, she'll remember and begin to work on them...

Then took a bus to airport and on the way, I was observing the ppl ard me... Quite interesting... I think God's presence has taken away all the fatigue... Yep yep...

Going to meet Rach later... Miss her much... Havent seen her for some time le... I think we'll have fun later... Hahaha...

Was just chatting with Xing on the phone last nite... He just came back from MISSIONS!!! Hahaha... He's indeed a changed man... From the day I 1st saw him in SAJC... Wahahaha....

Was just telling Devina that we've been together for almost a month!!! We came together in Oct... So abt 10 months le... Time really flies... N the dynamics of the CG has changed much too... Ppl have joined, ppl have left... Ppl have stagnanted, ppl have grown... But in all these, God is still in control. He's the God of all, He reigns... I feel that for myself... These coming few months left in this year is a time of shaping up the ppl... I'm going to enlarge my capacity... Not just the ppl in my connect group... But in the whole CG... N in my ministry... I want to help you to be a member of the church... Or at least ur character gets better, ur attitude towards things to improve...

I'm going to do my part in this CG... So if I call up ur ppl n disciple them... Dun get angry with me k? If u dun like it, let me know... I'll leave those ppl under ur care alone... If you want me to help, let me know... I'll pray abt it n see who is willing to be discipled... Now is not a slacking time... It's a time of sowing, working... For those exam ppl, ur need to fight the zzzzzzzz monster, the spirit of lethargy, complancency, laziness, tiredness, arrogance... Study hard n shine for God... Ur future is in your OWN hands... Dun blame others if you dun do well... You got to take responsibility for ur own actions...

Just read Jan's blog... He quoted from Pst Mark Conner's 2nd day msg... Maturity doesnt come with age... It comes with responsibility... So to become matured, you GOT TO take on responsibility... And one who has been proven to be faithful will be given more... So avail urself as the 1st time... There are tons of things to be done. If you want to help and got nothing to do, let me know... I'll find for u... AS every member begins to avail themselves, the CG is bound to grow... So EVERYONE plays a part... STOP SLACKING WILL YOU??? BUT... If you're not willing, it's ok... Dun need to do things with a 'forced' attitude... There are many more willing ppl out there... I read somewhere in the bible that God uses willing ppl not able ppl... If you're willing and not able, God will make you able... But if you're able but not willing, God will not use you... So I pray for more and more willing ppl... Willing to go all the way for God... ALL the WAY... ALL the WAY... ALL... ALL... Are u one such person??? Look into ur heart and ask urself...