Last Day of the Year

Today marks the last day of the year. Time has past exceptionally fast for me and indeed my capacity has increased loads this year. In the coming year, I will be moving to a new blog... Yes, again... But probably for the last few times. I did not put in the year in the next blog address... There are lots more i wanna say abt 2008. But probably not now... Lots done... A very eventful year indeed... 2009 will be better...

http://lifetogetherforever.blogspot.com/ Not up yet, but next post shld be there...

Thank GOD for an understanding Dear...

Dear is back... But I not very free to spend time with him... He has been so sweet and I feel quite bad that I cant accompany him... He comes to meet me almost every day after work to fetch me home. Waits for me to finish my work or when boss releases me. Helps me to run errand for gift exchange...

And especially during such a stressful period of time... When I thot that Oct closing completed can breathe a bit... Then need to rush schedules... Rush finish le thot can relax a bit then need to close Nov... God, help me to be so so so efficient with my time so that I can finish lots in a short short time...

And I really thank God for Ken... Supporting me in all these... Feel so loved and supported... Cant survive without him... :) Turn to ur neighbour n say 'THANK GOD FOR KENNETH' Hahaha... ;)

Dear is back

Yeah... Dear is back... Went to airport to pick him up last nite... Hee... Put on some weight le... Hahaha... Me eating only 1 meal in sg and he eats like a king in aust... See la... Ok... Perhaps this will give him more motivation to go n work out to lose the pounds... Yeah...

So much things to think abt and settle together... Now that he's back, it's time to get started... Yep yep... Da feng chui... In all aspects of my life... Nt easy but I feel it's better for all... So life hasnt been a bed of roses... Lots of adjusting to do... Hahaha...

Been so convicted on sat... Abt what Pst Zhuang shared in prayer meeting... Wonder where he got that video from... And the things he spoke abt. Being positive and all... Ya, i believe it truly affects ppl who read ur blog... So I'll make a decision to put more +ve things on my blogs.

Yes, not easy cos there are lots of struggles which one goes thru. But I think it's a choice what to you want to blog abt. And knowing that there are ppl out there who read ur blogs, why not let everyone have a better day after reading ur entry... Knowing that someone has been victorious in overcoming their struggles and obstacles... It gives faith to others to overcome...

I want to be someone who helps others... Someone who cares... Someone who sees... Someone who loves... God, help me to enlarge my heart n my capacity...

Update Finally

hahaha... Been MIA recently cos have been really buried with work. Didnt even have time to check my emails n all... Now that it's more or less than... Can breathe a bit n blog...

Been working in church for the past 2 months. Living life to the max. Working harder than I've ever been before. But I see the light. AHahaha... At least now that most of the entries are in, can take a breather and continue with the normal daily operations le.

It feels like I'm in this place for the longest time. I think I spend more time in suntec than at home or anywhere else. Most of my colleagues also work hard so it's pretty easy to work. Hahaha.... We all work hard together. Hope that this coming week will be better. I guess it will be... BUT... Dear is not ard.

Miss him really badly. Things havent been easy-going... Lots of things happening in the CG, but cant tell him... Cos he having holiday and I wanna him to enjoy it. So I have to carry this burden myself. Feel so sad.

Like as if missing him wasnt enough... Haiz... But well... At least after this trip, I think the next one we'll go together le... Looking forward to the honeymoon... This will be the 1st time that we can officially go overseas alone!!! 1st time... And finally... No need to fit into other ppl's schedules and all le. Lots of things to settle before that...

Buying ring, finding bridal studio n all... So many decisions to make in such a short time. A bit breathless... And on top of all these, still must manage workload, ministry n cg n all... I think my capacity really stretched til siao... I thot year end, can relax a bit le.. Who knows, the end is really better than the beginning... Hahaha... It's also abt time to sit down and start planning goals for next year le... Looking forward to 2009. It's going to be another very very exciting year and a change in my marital status by the end of it. WAHAHAHA.... I think I dreaming too much le... But I really looking forward to married life...

Who knows where we will be staying, who knows what we will be doing then, how many ppl be in our cg, how many ppl be under our care, in our circle of influence, how many friends we have, close friends... Who knows? But I know that I will be happy if I am with my dear... And I know it's true for him as well...

Meng says absence makes the heart fonder... Hahaha... Haiz... Trying to keep myself busy nowadays so that I wont think of him so much... So that's why I'm in the office on a mon which is supposed to a public holiday... Yeah... Keep my mind occupied. Yep yep... Dun even dare to count down to him coming back... Dun wanna think abt it. Just live each day as it is. I think this week will pass pretty quickly. Think I will head home after work everyday to get back my beauty sleep... Heh... Then sat gt outreach to sentosa... Then svc... Then PM.... Then I think by then, i will head home n KO le... Sun hopefully can sleep in again... Then got dinner... Then dear will be back le...

I just hope that I dun have more n more problems each day... And that this week will be a breeze... God grant this 1 little wish of this little girl... THANK YOU ABBA!!!

At the airport again...

Me sitting in Macs in T3... Waiting for Ken to knock off... Tired... Been in this area for the longest possible time... I was staying in the crowne plaza hotel the last few days... Didnt really use their amenities at all cos was practically working or sleeping... quite nice room la...

Asia conference is over! Need to rest a lot.. Think my voice partially gone also... Dunno why cos i didnt scream a lot leh... Think too tired... Hahaha...

1 more hour to go... then he will be free to go... Hmmm... wanna go walk ard a while while... Feeling sleepy leh... but lugging my bags ard seem a little tedious... i think i will go get a trolley soon... soon... waiting for my hp to finish receiving the songs... then can shut down n go le...

Sleepy

sleepy... period.

At Airport

I'm at the airport now... Using my hp to blog cos woke up especially early to go breakfast with dear... So he dropped me off at airport before going office... Me leaving soon.... Office doesn't open til 9+, so no point going so early.. Tired... Zzzzzzz...

We recently invested in 5 jigsaws... Hee... All mickeys... Pcs are 2000, 1000, 300, 108 n 204. N guess what? We've completed the 3 smaller ones in abt 4 hours in all! Haha... It's fun! So to date, we have 8 disney puzzles. 5 done, 2 soon to be done... It's so exciting... Hahaha...

Congratulations to Rachel

yeah! Rachel passed! Hee... So happy for her... She has been working hard to get it... As for me... think really need to find time to practise la... Haiz... Time time... Been meeting dear these few days... Quite happy... Hee...

Oh Ya... Forgot to do something last nite... Haiz... Must set reminder... So many things to remember man... God help me!!! Haha.... An update in the next post... Cos this post is dedicated to RACHEL!!! :)

Birthdays

Birthdays... There are so many birthdays round the corner... Even in my dept as well... N also in the office... Hmmmm... So many Nov babies... Hahah... Yep... Was just reading Meng's post on birthdays... ya, Meng was telling me that 2 of her friends fell out with each other some days before the bday... So sad... Haiz...

But even as we celebrate bdays, i begin to look back n think abt the attitudes we carried when we were younger... We were all fighting to do bday cards n plan bday celebrations for the ppl in the cg. Especially so for ppl who have touched our lives, spent time discipling us. We just want to be the one who plan the celebration, get the card done n present n do a great and memorable one for the person who have sowed into our lives.

Times have changed... And it's so sad.. The attitudes that our ppl carry now is so haiz... All shrinking responsibilities... It's always the same old ppl thinking of the celebration, making sure that everything runs smoothly... Card, cake, present all bought n practical... This is so sad... I cant help but think what I can do to bring back that attitude... THat willingness to serve... That love that we have for the ppl ard us... Why is it so hard to love ppl now? OR what has happened? This attitude is spreading... N it's bad... Real bad... Anyone out there have any remedy?

Love cannot be forced, Love is a decision and a choice. It is not easy. Cos u need to think of others at the expense of self. But love can change the world... Just like how God changed it. We can do it too... Just by loving a little more... A little more at a time... The world will be a better place... The ppl will love to come n join us... our cg... I'm sure of that. IF we all can just do our part to love a little more... ... ...

Angel from heaven.....

Hahahhaa... I was working in church after svc on sat... was feeling a little hungry when svc ended... Cos ate only cup noodle or rather bowl noodle for lunch... Kekeke.... Then went up to 4th floor n saw that they were giving out some food... I went to get... Heh... It was meant for the pre-svc PM ppl but announcements were not made, so there were lots of food left over...

Then while eating that... Simon brought some fruits over! And later seow ping brought a chicken mayo sandwich over... So healthy! Hahaha... but truly I was very blessed by their gestures. I was feeling quite stressed and sian that I failed my driving again... Then they were really like angels sent to lift up my spirit... I was much happier after eating n felt refreshed...

I began working... Although it was noisy, but i thank God for concentration. I finished 1 schedule there that day with lots of tabs... HAhaha... And sent it out before I left the place to airport to fetch dear dear... Gave him a little surprise by being there... Thank GOd that I didnt miss him... Hahaha... Yeah... Starting to miss dear le, even though we spent the whole Sun together... Hmmmmm... And we bought puzzles!!!!!!!!!!! Cost us 200++!!! But we bought 5 puzzles! Think it's a good investment... All disney one... So happy.... There's something we can look forward to when we're free...

Back to those days where we can just laze at home n complete puzzles... We have 3 completed so far that we did together... plus these 5 will be 8 le... Plus some of others which i have n he has will be so many le... Looking forward to our new house... Then we can decorate the wall with our prized possessions... Wahahaha... So fun!

Accidents

Last nite I witnessed another accident, or rather the aftermath of an accident. A taxi n a lorry were involved. And I would think that the impact was quite strong cos it was on PIE. The 3 lanes became passable only by 1. Can imagine the impact... The front of the comfort taxi was crashed quite badly... The ambulance overtook us n stopped there... Realised the accident took place not too long ago...

When I saw that a taxi was involved. I muttered a prayer... My dad also drives taxi at nite. Haiz... So scary... Why do i see so many accidents a few days before I take my test?!?!?! God is really testing my faith man... Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

I've started work in my new place for a month+... Time passed so quickly here... But lots of things done as well... Cos I've been putting long hours to it... Not that the hours are really long, but i chose to stay back, to clear my stuff... God's strength n grace be with me to sustain me thru the rest of the year...

I need to set aside some time to evaluate myself... It's year end le... Dunno how many days left to 31st Dec, think ard 50 plus... So fast! But this year my life has been full of changes... Well... Just hope that everything will turn out fine...

Car accident

Last nite i went for my driving lesson... Restarted it... After the last test on 1st Aug... Havent driven for almost 2 months! Hahaha... Quite alright la... But I witnessed an accident... So scary... Thank God I was the 2nd car at the junction... Not the 1st. I wouldnt know what to do if I had seen the whole thing... Was a little traumatised by it... But ok la... My instructor was with me...

What happened was a red car was turning right into the lane beside me. Then there was a bike going straight ahead of me, horizontally from my right to my left? Then think the bike was too slow n the car was too fast? so the car hit the bike n the front right side of the car. the front thing dropped out n was dragging on the road as it completes the turn. Some fluid was flowing out also... My instructor says it's just water... The rider flew off the bike but he was still conscious... He tried to stand up but can see him struggling... The driver in front of my car got out to help... I missed one traffic light cos of this accident. The red car driver parked n got out n walked over. Think she was shaken too... The rider seems like an Indian man... I didnt stay for long... Just drove off after the car in front of me moved off... I think I ran over a nail... My instructor had to get out n check and removed the nail a few 100 metres away...

Are female drivers really bad at driving? It does scares me to a certain extent... Haiz... God, give me faith that I will pass this round... Not much time to practise... Zzzzzzzzzz.... God, guide me... Help me, lead me...

I want to be more efficient

Haiz... I feel that I havent been working very efficiently... Feeling very pek chek.... God give me wisdom n efficiency to complete my work quickly...

Positive confessions

Was really impacted by what Pst shared about over the weekend... As we meditate on the things which ppl speak to us n believe in our hearts that this is to be so, it'll surely come to pass. Similar to the self-fulfilling prophecy... And the crystals that might be formed by our bodily fluid... I am curious to find out what my crystals are like now... Hee...

Anyway, i was talking with dear and we conclude that we're going to call into existence the things which we want. a nice house, we'll be able to get it at a good price... A growing cg, where every member is committed to growing spiritually, every member is ready to be a discipler but yet still humble to be discipled. we're going to see things thru eyes of faith... Thru God's eyes... Truly the starting is not easy as we will normally fall back on our flesh, but I pray as I make this decision, God will help me. Holy Spirit will remind me. Think positive, stay positive, speak positive. HAVE FAITH!!! Let's do this together... I think it helps! :)

Busy

HAhaha... realised that it's been so long since i blogged... taking a break from the tasks that need to be completed very very soon. Rather by yesterday... Oops... But grace grace... God is good, we managed to get extension from my boss... hahaha... Stressed man... God, give me wisdom, help me to spot the difference and how to do it in the most efficient way...

It's a really nice envt, the ppl here are spiritual, mostly... hahaha... u can hear ppl start to pray or cry out JESUS HELP ME when the stress sets in or when the dateline draws near... HAhaha... My dept ppl very helpful too... Nice ppl...

The thing which is really different is the lunch time... the ppl here are real 'xian'... they usually eat lunch at 2 plus... hahaha... sometimes even in the late afternoon... i've learnt to work with this lifestyle also. buy breakfast on way to work then lunch at 3, 4 or 5pm, then dinner is skipped out just some drinks like soya bean... think with this kind of lifestyle, i think i can slim down... hahhaa... i hope soon...

started to plan for my wedding le, but very started also... hahaha... i think the dates quite fixed le... 19 n 21 sep 09... yep... so guys, start training up... Gals, it's time to think of tegans... hahaha.... Looking forward to it le... Hee...

My agent Faith called me yesterday... She asked how come decided to bring forward the wedding by a year? Wanna give birth le? Hmmm... I thot n told her, i think it's time to move on... Been paktoring for too long le la, wanna try something new... living together!!! hahaha... True mah... Yeah...

New beginning

Just started work in my new office. It's a nice place to work in, the ppl are nice, friendly. But there's a subtle pressure to perform. This pressure doesnt come from external sources, but internally generated. Cos u just want to do well, do your best to serve God. So just trying to learn the ropes asap and also think of ways to improve the whole work process, to make it more efficient and all.

Havent found the time to really blog cos lunch time is short and everyone's working so hard. And Ken just commented that I havent blogged so long, so decided to put in a few lines... Going to restart my driving soon. But instructor going overseas. So starting only at the end of the month. I got to pass this time round man, so many times le, so ex also... Broke le... God this is the last time to pass le. make it happen for me...

A tai tai lifestyle

Today has been an enjoyable day thus far... Woke up super early and accompanied dear to work then travelled all the way back to highlight my hair. it ended earlier than expected so went home to nap. Came out to get hp screen protector then went for pedicure at wax in the city at raffles place area. They got wifi, so blogging now... Prob later will pop over to jav's to say hi... Then meet rachel for dinner then discipleship meeting tonight... Wahahahaha... Tml starting work le... Exciting!!!!

A rest day today...

Am at Ken's place again... Since morning... Haha... I decided that it's going to be my rest day today and ken's also... So made him cancel his guitar lesson with xing and spend some time with me before I start work on tue. Tml will be a busy day... Going to colour my hair then pedicure and discipleship session at nite... Yep... Then tue going to start work le... Zzzzzz... So fast!!! Haha...

But ok la, expected it le... And quite excited to be learning new things all over again... I using my hp to blog cos ken's mom mopped the floor so I decided to stay on the sofa til the floor dries, so use my hp to surf net lo... Hee...

Congratulations

yeah!!! I'm free!!! I've served my notice and am out of my company le... Ken was so funny. He sent a bouquet of flowers to my office to congratulate me... My colleagues were so jealous... He's so sweet... I thot the flowers will come in last fri during my bday, but it came in on my last day instead,.. caught me by surprise... Ha... The little errors here and there are cos i nt used to this phone yet, so bear with me for the time being til I get used to this... Upload one of the photos taken with this hp... Heh... Fun toy!!!! Haha...

E71

yeah! I got my E71 phone. Decided to pamper myself a little and got a more high tech hp. So am at ken's place now, blogging via his wireless lan connection. This is just so cool! Haha... Call me mountain tortoise whatever, but am quite happy with this new toy, though not very proficient in using this hp yet, but so far so good. lots of things to explore... heh... When I get to go online then I'll blog more at the phone ba... :)