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Last Day of the Year

2008-12-31T18:06:00.002+08:00

Today marks the last day of the year. Time has past exceptionally fast for me and indeed my capacity has increased loads this year. In the coming year, I will be moving to a new blog... Yes, again... But probably for the last few times. I did not put in the year in the next blog address... There are lots more i wanna say abt 2008. But probably not now... Lots done... A very eventful year indeed... 2009 will be better...

http://lifetogetherforever.blogspot.com/ Not up yet, but next post shld be there...

Thank GOD for an understanding Dear...

2008-12-17T23:38:00.002+08:00

Dear is back... But I not very free to spend time with him... He has been so sweet and I feel quite bad that I cant accompany him... He comes to meet me almost every day after work to fetch me home. Waits for me to finish my work or when boss releases me. Helps me to run errand for gift exchange...

And especially during such a stressful period of time... When I thot that Oct closing completed can breathe a bit... Then need to rush schedules... Rush finish le thot can relax a bit then need to close Nov... God, help me to be so so so efficient with my time so that I can finish lots in a short short time...

And I really thank God for Ken... Supporting me in all these... Feel so loved and supported... Cant survive without him... :) Turn to ur neighbour n say 'THANK GOD FOR KENNETH' Hahaha... ;)

Dear is back

2008-12-15T12:08:00.002+08:00

Yeah... Dear is back... Went to airport to pick him up last nite... Hee... Put on some weight le... Hahaha... Me eating only 1 meal in sg and he eats like a king in aust... See la... Ok... Perhaps this will give him more motivation to go n work out to lose the pounds... Yeah...

So much things to think abt and settle together... Now that he's back, it's time to get started... Yep yep... Da feng chui... In all aspects of my life... Nt easy but I feel it's better for all... So life hasnt been a bed of roses... Lots of adjusting to do... Hahaha...

Been so convicted on sat... Abt what Pst Zhuang shared in prayer meeting... Wonder where he got that video from... And the things he spoke abt. Being positive and all... Ya, i believe it truly affects ppl who read ur blog... So I'll make a decision to put more +ve things on my blogs.

Yes, not easy cos there are lots of struggles which one goes thru. But I think it's a choice what to you want to blog abt. And knowing that there are ppl out there who read ur blogs, why not let everyone have a better day after reading ur entry... Knowing that someone has been victorious in overcoming their struggles and obstacles... It gives faith to others to overcome...

I want to be someone who helps others... Someone who cares... Someone who sees... Someone who loves... God, help me to enlarge my heart n my capacity...

Update Finally

2008-12-08T19:29:00.002+08:00

hahaha... Been MIA recently cos have been really buried with work. Didnt even have time to check my emails n all... Now that it's more or less than... Can breathe a bit n blog...

Been working in church for the past 2 months. Living life to the max. Working harder than I've ever been before. But I see the light. AHahaha... At least now that most of the entries are in, can take a breather and continue with the normal daily operations le.

It feels like I'm in this place for the longest time. I think I spend more time in suntec than at home or anywhere else. Most of my colleagues also work hard so it's pretty easy to work. Hahaha.... We all work hard together. Hope that this coming week will be better. I guess it will be... BUT... Dear is not ard.

Miss him really badly. Things havent been easy-going... Lots of things happening in the CG, but cant tell him... Cos he having holiday and I wanna him to enjoy it. So I have to carry this burden myself. Feel so sad.

Like as if missing him wasnt enough... Haiz... But well... At least after this trip, I think the next one we'll go together le... Looking forward to the honeymoon... This will be the 1st time that we can officially go overseas alone!!! 1st time... And finally... No need to fit into other ppl's schedules and all le. Lots of things to settle before that...

Buying ring, finding bridal studio n all... So many decisions to make in such a short time. A bit breathless... And on top of all these, still must manage workload, ministry n cg n all... I think my capacity really stretched til siao... I thot year end, can relax a bit le.. Who knows, the end is really better than the beginning... Hahaha... It's also abt time to sit down and start planning goals for next year le... Looking forward to 2009. It's going to be another very very exciting year and a change in my marital status by the end of it. WAHAHAHA.... I think I dreaming too much le... But I really looking forward to married life...

Who knows where we will be staying, who knows what we will be doing then, how many ppl be in our cg, how many ppl be under our care, in our circle of influence, how many friends we have, close friends... Who knows? But I know that I will be happy if I am with my dear... And I know it's true for him as well...

Meng says absence makes the heart fonder... Hahaha... Haiz... Trying to keep myself busy nowadays so that I wont think of him so much... So that's why I'm in the office on a mon which is supposed to a public holiday... Yeah... Keep my mind occupied. Yep yep... Dun even dare to count down to him coming back... Dun wanna think abt it. Just live each day as it is. I think this week will pass pretty quickly. Think I will head home after work everyday to get back my beauty sleep... Heh... Then sat gt outreach to sentosa... Then svc... Then PM.... Then I think by then, i will head home n KO le... Sun hopefully can sleep in again... Then got dinner... Then dear will be back le...

I just hope that I dun have more n more problems each day... And that this week will be a breeze... God grant this 1 little wish of this little girl... THANK YOU ABBA!!!

At the airport again...

2008-11-24T16:04:00.002+08:00

Me sitting in Macs in T3... Waiting for Ken to knock off... Tired... Been in this area for the longest possible time... I was staying in the crowne plaza hotel the last few days... Didnt really use their amenities at all cos was practically working or sleeping... quite nice room la...

Asia conference is over! Need to rest a lot.. Think my voice partially gone also... Dunno why cos i didnt scream a lot leh... Think too tired... Hahaha...

1 more hour to go... then he will be free to go... Hmmm... wanna go walk ard a while while... Feeling sleepy leh... but lugging my bags ard seem a little tedious... i think i will go get a trolley soon... soon... waiting for my hp to finish receiving the songs... then can shut down n go le...

Sleepy

2008-11-21T11:10:00.000+08:00

sleepy... period.

At Airport

2008-11-14T08:25:00.002+08:00

I'm at the airport now... Using my hp to blog cos woke up especially early to go breakfast with dear... So he dropped me off at airport before going office... Me leaving soon.... Office doesn't open til 9+, so no point going so early.. Tired... Zzzzzzz...

We recently invested in 5 jigsaws... Hee... All mickeys... Pcs are 2000, 1000, 300, 108 n 204. N guess what? We've completed the 3 smaller ones in abt 4 hours in all! Haha... It's fun! So to date, we have 8 disney puzzles. 5 done, 2 soon to be done... It's so exciting... Hahaha...

Congratulations to Rachel

2008-11-14T08:21:00.002+08:00

yeah! Rachel passed! Hee... So happy for her... She has been working hard to get it... As for me... think really need to find time to practise la... Haiz... Time time... Been meeting dear these few days... Quite happy... Hee...

Oh Ya... Forgot to do something last nite... Haiz... Must set reminder... So many things to remember man... God help me!!! Haha.... An update in the next post... Cos this post is dedicated to RACHEL!!! :)

Birthdays

2008-11-10T09:15:00.002+08:00

Birthdays... There are so many birthdays round the corner... Even in my dept as well... N also in the office... Hmmmm... So many Nov babies... Hahah... Yep... Was just reading Meng's post on birthdays... ya, Meng was telling me that 2 of her friends fell out with each other some days before the bday... So sad... Haiz...

But even as we celebrate bdays, i begin to look back n think abt the attitudes we carried when we were younger... We were all fighting to do bday cards n plan bday celebrations for the ppl in the cg. Especially so for ppl who have touched our lives, spent time discipling us. We just want to be the one who plan the celebration, get the card done n present n do a great and memorable one for the person who have sowed into our lives.

Times have changed... And it's so sad.. The attitudes that our ppl carry now is so haiz... All shrinking responsibilities... It's always the same old ppl thinking of the celebration, making sure that everything runs smoothly... Card, cake, present all bought n practical... This is so sad... I cant help but think what I can do to bring back that attitude... THat willingness to serve... That love that we have for the ppl ard us... Why is it so hard to love ppl now? OR what has happened? This attitude is spreading... N it's bad... Real bad... Anyone out there have any remedy?

Love cannot be forced, Love is a decision and a choice. It is not easy. Cos u need to think of others at the expense of self. But love can change the world... Just like how God changed it. We can do it too... Just by loving a little more... A little more at a time... The world will be a better place... The ppl will love to come n join us... our cg... I'm sure of that. IF we all can just do our part to love a little more... ... ...

Angel from heaven.....

2008-11-10T09:05:00.002+08:00

Hahahhaa... I was working in church after svc on sat... was feeling a little hungry when svc ended... Cos ate only cup noodle or rather bowl noodle for lunch... Kekeke.... Then went up to 4th floor n saw that they were giving out some food... I went to get... Heh... It was meant for the pre-svc PM ppl but announcements were not made, so there were lots of food left over...

Then while eating that... Simon brought some fruits over! And later seow ping brought a chicken mayo sandwich over... So healthy! Hahaha... but truly I was very blessed by their gestures. I was feeling quite stressed and sian that I failed my driving again... Then they were really like angels sent to lift up my spirit... I was much happier after eating n felt refreshed...

I began working... Although it was noisy, but i thank God for concentration. I finished 1 schedule there that day with lots of tabs... HAhaha... And sent it out before I left the place to airport to fetch dear dear... Gave him a little surprise by being there... Thank GOd that I didnt miss him... Hahaha... Yeah... Starting to miss dear le, even though we spent the whole Sun together... Hmmmmm... And we bought puzzles!!!!!!!!!!! Cost us 200++!!! But we bought 5 puzzles! Think it's a good investment... All disney one... So happy.... There's something we can look forward to when we're free...

Back to those days where we can just laze at home n complete puzzles... We have 3 completed so far that we did together... plus these 5 will be 8 le... Plus some of others which i have n he has will be so many le... Looking forward to our new house... Then we can decorate the wall with our prized possessions... Wahahaha... So fun!

Accidents

2008-11-06T10:26:00.002+08:00

Last nite I witnessed another accident, or rather the aftermath of an accident. A taxi n a lorry were involved. And I would think that the impact was quite strong cos it was on PIE. The 3 lanes became passable only by 1. Can imagine the impact... The front of the comfort taxi was crashed quite badly... The ambulance overtook us n stopped there... Realised the accident took place not too long ago...

When I saw that a taxi was involved. I muttered a prayer... My dad also drives taxi at nite. Haiz... So scary... Why do i see so many accidents a few days before I take my test?!?!?! God is really testing my faith man... Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

I've started work in my new place for a month+... Time passed so quickly here... But lots of things done as well... Cos I've been putting long hours to it... Not that the hours are really long, but i chose to stay back, to clear my stuff... God's strength n grace be with me to sustain me thru the rest of the year...

I need to set aside some time to evaluate myself... It's year end le... Dunno how many days left to 31st Dec, think ard 50 plus... So fast! But this year my life has been full of changes... Well... Just hope that everything will turn out fine...

Car accident

2008-10-29T12:44:00.002+08:00

Last nite i went for my driving lesson... Restarted it... After the last test on 1st Aug... Havent driven for almost 2 months! Hahaha... Quite alright la... But I witnessed an accident... So scary... Thank God I was the 2nd car at the junction... Not the 1st. I wouldnt know what to do if I had seen the whole thing... Was a little traumatised by it... But ok la... My instructor was with me...

What happened was a red car was turning right into the lane beside me. Then there was a bike going straight ahead of me, horizontally from my right to my left? Then think the bike was too slow n the car was too fast? so the car hit the bike n the front right side of the car. the front thing dropped out n was dragging on the road as it completes the turn. Some fluid was flowing out also... My instructor says it's just water... The rider flew off the bike but he was still conscious... He tried to stand up but can see him struggling... The driver in front of my car got out to help... I missed one traffic light cos of this accident. The red car driver parked n got out n walked over. Think she was shaken too... The rider seems like an Indian man... I didnt stay for long... Just drove off after the car in front of me moved off... I think I ran over a nail... My instructor had to get out n check and removed the nail a few 100 metres away...

Are female drivers really bad at driving? It does scares me to a certain extent... Haiz... God, give me faith that I will pass this round... Not much time to practise... Zzzzzzzzzz.... God, guide me... Help me, lead me...

I want to be more efficient

2008-10-23T10:36:00.002+08:00

Haiz... I feel that I havent been working very efficiently... Feeling very pek chek.... God give me wisdom n efficiency to complete my work quickly...

Positive confessions

2008-10-20T12:32:00.002+08:00

Was really impacted by what Pst shared about over the weekend... As we meditate on the things which ppl speak to us n believe in our hearts that this is to be so, it'll surely come to pass. Similar to the self-fulfilling prophecy... And the crystals that might be formed by our bodily fluid... I am curious to find out what my crystals are like now... Hee...

Anyway, i was talking with dear and we conclude that we're going to call into existence the things which we want. a nice house, we'll be able to get it at a good price... A growing cg, where every member is committed to growing spiritually, every member is ready to be a discipler but yet still humble to be discipled. we're going to see things thru eyes of faith... Thru God's eyes... Truly the starting is not easy as we will normally fall back on our flesh, but I pray as I make this decision, God will help me. Holy Spirit will remind me. Think positive, stay positive, speak positive. HAVE FAITH!!! Let's do this together... I think it helps! :)

Busy

2008-10-16T13:09:00.002+08:00

HAhaha... realised that it's been so long since i blogged... taking a break from the tasks that need to be completed very very soon. Rather by yesterday... Oops... But grace grace... God is good, we managed to get extension from my boss... hahaha... Stressed man... God, give me wisdom, help me to spot the difference and how to do it in the most efficient way...

It's a really nice envt, the ppl here are spiritual, mostly... hahaha... u can hear ppl start to pray or cry out JESUS HELP ME when the stress sets in or when the dateline draws near... HAhaha... My dept ppl very helpful too... Nice ppl...

The thing which is really different is the lunch time... the ppl here are real 'xian'... they usually eat lunch at 2 plus... hahaha... sometimes even in the late afternoon... i've learnt to work with this lifestyle also. buy breakfast on way to work then lunch at 3, 4 or 5pm, then dinner is skipped out just some drinks like soya bean... think with this kind of lifestyle, i think i can slim down... hahhaa... i hope soon...

started to plan for my wedding le, but very started also... hahaha... i think the dates quite fixed le... 19 n 21 sep 09... yep... so guys, start training up... Gals, it's time to think of tegans... hahaha.... Looking forward to it le... Hee...

My agent Faith called me yesterday... She asked how come decided to bring forward the wedding by a year? Wanna give birth le? Hmmm... I thot n told her, i think it's time to move on... Been paktoring for too long le la, wanna try something new... living together!!! hahaha... True mah... Yeah...

New beginning

2008-10-09T10:09:00.001+08:00

Just started work in my new office. It's a nice place to work in, the ppl are nice, friendly. But there's a subtle pressure to perform. This pressure doesnt come from external sources, but internally generated. Cos u just want to do well, do your best to serve God. So just trying to learn the ropes asap and also think of ways to improve the whole work process, to make it more efficient and all.

Havent found the time to really blog cos lunch time is short and everyone's working so hard. And Ken just commented that I havent blogged so long, so decided to put in a few lines... Going to restart my driving soon. But instructor going overseas. So starting only at the end of the month. I got to pass this time round man, so many times le, so ex also... Broke le... God this is the last time to pass le. make it happen for me...

A tai tai lifestyle

2008-10-06T16:25:00.003+08:00

Today has been an enjoyable day thus far... Woke up super early and accompanied dear to work then travelled all the way back to highlight my hair. it ended earlier than expected so went home to nap. Came out to get hp screen protector then went for pedicure at wax in the city at raffles place area. They got wifi, so blogging now... Prob later will pop over to jav's to say hi... Then meet rachel for dinner then discipleship meeting tonight... Wahahahaha... Tml starting work le... Exciting!!!!

A rest day today...

2008-10-05T15:41:00.003+08:00

Am at Ken's place again... Since morning... Haha... I decided that it's going to be my rest day today and ken's also... So made him cancel his guitar lesson with xing and spend some time with me before I start work on tue. Tml will be a busy day... Going to colour my hair then pedicure and discipleship session at nite... Yep... Then tue going to start work le... Zzzzzz... So fast!!! Haha...

But ok la, expected it le... And quite excited to be learning new things all over again... I using my hp to blog cos ken's mom mopped the floor so I decided to stay on the sofa til the floor dries, so use my hp to surf net lo... Hee...

Congratulations

2008-10-04T20:04:00.003+08:00

yeah!!! I'm free!!! I've served my notice and am out of my company le... Ken was so funny. He sent a bouquet of flowers to my office to congratulate me... My colleagues were so jealous... He's so sweet... I thot the flowers will come in last fri during my bday, but it came in on my last day instead,.. caught me by surprise... Ha... The little errors here and there are cos i nt used to this phone yet, so bear with me for the time being til I get used to this... Upload one of the photos taken with this hp... Heh... Fun toy!!!! Haha...

E71

2008-10-04T19:57:00.002+08:00

yeah! I got my E71 phone. Decided to pamper myself a little and got a more high tech hp. So am at ken's place now, blogging via his wireless lan connection. This is just so cool! Haha... Call me mountain tortoise whatever, but am quite happy with this new toy, though not very proficient in using this hp yet, but so far so good. lots of things to explore... heh... When I get to go online then I'll blog more at the phone ba... :)

Reflecting

2008-09-27T12:33:00.002+08:00

A new phase of my life has started... I'm 25!!! Passed the half way mark of 20 le... Been in church for the past 8 years +, really felt that my life has been blessed ever since that day... It was not smooth sailing, but I was nvr alone. Everything I have now, is given by God... Amazing!!! I would nvr have come so far without Him!!!

Going to start work in a new envt soon, in 2 week's time. Looking forward to the new life and totally excited abt it... Ken was saying I should go shopping soon, change my wardrobe... Heh...

This adventure is going to get more fun... Exciting life! :)

25th Birthday (II)

2008-09-26T17:01:00.004+08:00

Bday messages for Keepsake...

12:00:27am Dennis: Hey hui qin!! Happy birthday!! =)
12:12:55am Shaun: Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to HUI QIN! Happy Birthday to you!
May this bday bring BLESSINGS of every kind!
- Bruce, Shaun & nigel
12:45:38am Wanyun: Happy birthday gal! Hee =)
01:46:28am Yuanxing: Hui Qin, happy birthday! Haha. Lol. Happy birthday ah.
03:17am Jean: http://doggiepawprints.blogspot.com/2008/09/for-beanie.html (A blog entry)
05:44:09am Weijun: Yoz, happy birthday! Enjoy your day n stay cheerful always..)
06:03:21am Cheng Li: Happy birthday! The present is from jonathan and me... Hope u enjoy
08:39:05am Kenneth - He called to wish me happy birthday...
08:51:49am Javiny: Happy birthday qin! :) thanks for many years of love n friendship. Have a blessed day!
09:24:20am Lay Kuan: Happy Birthday Hazy!!!!!! :)
09:58:45am Kgoon Liang: Happy bdae huiqin! Till your nxt bdae, may your year shead be filled with more joy than ever before. Joy in gd times, joy in bad time; joy when u're at work, joy when u're with friends. Joy in relationships and joy in new things. Above all, may your joy in God be more than ever before!
10:58:41am Juner: Huiqin! Happy birthday from 4 of us! May you have a really great n happy year ahead as you prepare to be a beautiful bride! Hee!
12:01:48pm Jan: happy birthday huiqin =)
12:16:38pm Laimeng: Hahaha! Happy birthday! Lol :)
09:00:00pm Mummy: 生日快乐事事顺利
09:37:40pm Huiqi: Hihi! Happy birthday and many many happy returns! :) May God bless you forevermore. Hope it's a great birthday! Love ya love ya muacks! Lots of well wishes ^^
12:32:14am Weiyan: Hi qin! Happy belated birthday!! U must've tot I forgot rite? Haha.. Eh.. I've decided to b special n wish u hald an hr aft.. Haha. Anw may all ur wishes come to pass! Quick quick! Get married soon! I'll help u look after baby! Haha.. Hope u enjoyed urself on such a special day.. Tx for being such a lovin sister n friend to me.. U've really made a difference in my life.. Tho we no longer in same cg.. But I left a piece o my heart w u when i left cg.. Hee.. Must take care o it k? Luv ya! Muacks! Hugs! :)
01:20:20am Nicholas: Anyway, happy belated bday! Was it what you expected at cell. Haha.

Note that these do note include the ppl who wished me in person... :)

25th Birthday (I)

2008-09-26T16:53:00.002+08:00

Celebrations started last sat... With my family... Went to eat at the boon lay rajah restaurant at the boon lay branch... Food was quite alright... One of the few times my family gather together for meal... So quite good la...

2nd one was on Sun nite with my ministry leaders and partners... We went to melting pot to eat... There was 1 for 1 promo... So quite worth it la... Also nice company and a cake to sum it all up...

3rd one was a bday dinner on Mon nite with Ken's mom at Marina Square... Went to eat at dian xiao er... Food was nice... :)

4th one was the one in the previous post, by my colleagues... Friends have been nice, sending lots of smses, calls, even entry on blog!!! Thank you thank you... Touched...

I think there's going to be some more celebrations tonight... But well, I think I'm not surprised by non-colleagues in office...

Saw 2 ppl carrying flowers from the reception today... Well, Ken says we shld save the money to get married... So no flowers... No delivery... Nvm... He's not really a romantic guy, a more practical guy I would say... So ok la, I can understand... I prefer his company though... :)

Will post up the SMS bday wishes in my next post... So that I can keep a record of them... A keepsake, cos my hp is going soon... Giving out weird sounds and bad transmission, etc...

Blown away

2008-09-26T16:48:00.002+08:00

Just had a bday celebration in office... So paiseh... Hahaha...

Hmmm... Am still doing my secondment... Then a group of friends from a previous engagement came and sing birthday song for me... Brought a cake too... Then one of the Managers in this seconded dept heard them and sang very loudly... Faints... Then he said it was too soft, so resang the song again!!! Faints... In english then chinese...

then they realised another gal in their dept also having her bday today... So sang again for her...

So we just finished the cake... A choco cake from sweet secrets... LK went to IP to buy... It's an amazing feat cos she always say IP is super far... Then she went to Ya Kun to buy drinks for me... Which is on the other side... So she walked really really far... Hahaha... Thank you thank you... Really appreciate you all lots!!!

Today time flies, it's already almost 5pm!!! The work day is ending soon... Went to Uncle Sam for lunch... Finally got to try their claypot rice... ok la... Svc was quite fast, food was hot, so quite shiok la... Then just run here, run there, collect things and all... Think today has been a real short day, or rather a day which time flies past... More celebrations coming...

Ermz...

2008-09-25T10:47:00.000+08:00

Just read Ken's new post... So fed up with him... Act cute huh? :p

Showed my colleague, she laughed... And said I like ur friend's humour... Then I told her it's my bf... And she ermz... Ok, but quite true la... Haiz... Wat is happening to the guys of this generation??? Why are their thinkings so warped...

One obsessive guy been pouring his heart out to me n one other gal... Then not even sure if the feelings for the gal he likes is mutual? I find that it's really a waste of time talking to him nowadays... Maybe cos he doesnt really listen to wat I say, more like i just want u to listen, but i'm not going to take ur advice... Haiz, stop wasting our time la... We got more urgent things on hand to do...

And stop hinting me abt wat I'll be getting on my bday... I've been ard for so long, I know wat is going on... Can you stop making it so so so obvious? It's getting on my nerves la... I mean I appreciate u for helping to coordinate and plan my bday celebrations, but I dun need you to come and tell me things like "make sure u go to work on ur bday", "make sure you come for CGM on that day", "Make sure u not going overseas on that day"... Haiz... Can I have a little surprise??? Like as if things done subtlely I dunno like that? It's childish la... Haiz... Grow up!!! Grow up guys!!!

Hope again...

2008-09-23T22:24:00.001+08:00

Was just worshipping God... Think my feeling now is disappointed... But God just told me to hope again... Have hope, bring hope to the ppl ard me... I can do it... But I got to pick myself up 1st... Yep... I got to go pick myself up...

Haiz...

2008-09-23T11:52:00.002+08:00

I dislike talking abt this... Always makes me flare up... Irritating... Thot this should be something done together? Why do I feel like I'm the only one settling this by myself??? Facing the parents, negotiating the terms... So pek chek... Haiz...

Blessed...

2008-09-22T16:40:00.002+08:00

Just came back from toilet and found $2 note on my laptop... According to the colleague sitting next to me, it was on my seat and he just put it on my laptop instead. Am pretty sure it's not mine, but well, finders keepers... So just thank God that HE blessed me with a $2 note... Yep, great way to start the week huh? Heh...

Just had dinner with my nursery svc IC last nite... So blessed... They gave me a visa card!!! Apparently this card has a stored value inside and it can be used at any shop which accepts visa... So cool... So I can go shopping le... Need a new pairs of sports shoes to motivate me to work out more... Heh... Havent gone shopping though...

Oh ya, then Aunty gave me smthg from GUESS... I was wow! Think she gave me a belt from there last year also... Wow! And I opened it and it's a wallet!!! Didnt take a photo of it, but it sure has lots of card slots! Wow! and i didnt tell her i want a wallet... She's powerful!!! Hahaha... Yep yep, so these are the 3 presents I've gotten and there're more to come...

Think I going to get a Nokia E71... Yeah!!! Costs $338 on promo... Hee... :)

Grieved

2008-09-20T02:20:00.002+08:00

I am sorry... I realised that I've been putting ppl down with my words. I really didnt mean to hurt you. I only realised that I shouldnt have said those things after those words exited my mouth... I feel that the Holy Spirit was grieved at that instance and I felt upset with myself too. So just want to apologise to all the ppl whom I've been putting down, discouraging, demeaning... Whether it's consciously or sub-consciously... I'm truly sorry...

I will remind myself not to do it again. So pls help me... Remind me if I forget...

I really really am sorry. Pls forgive me k? I dun mean to hurt anyone... Sorry sorry...

Disappointed

2008-09-18T15:40:00.002+08:00

We went out for dinner last nite, late dinner, 8+ then managed to meet up and were really disappointed... We went to the Chong Qing Huo Guo at Kallang area one... The row of shophouses between Kallang MRT station and the PA, but opp the bus interchange? Yep, went to this one cos it's cheaper... Some were 16.80, so this one was 13.80? but we were really disappointed la. There's meat, fish, crab and all, but not nice lo... Then soup base, one spicy, the other think chicken soup? The spicy one was yucky, like chilli oil and dried chilli added to the chicken soup.

We had a disaatisfied dinner aft one long day of work... Then we went home... At 1am, i went to the toilet and had diarrhoea!!! Haiz... Then I went back to sleep... Was just talking to Ken this morning and realised that he also had diarrhoea, but only in the morning... Think my body couldnt take the yucky food... Yep, so I went to see doc n got MC to rest today... Yep... So dun go back there hor... Horrible food and horrible hygiene... Haiyo... Waste my money... N my poor body...

29 units sold today

2008-09-17T18:24:00.002+08:00

It's moving so fast... 29 units sold in 1 day, the flats are being snapped up so fast now... I wonder if we get a chance to even choose... God, reserve a high flr room for us!!! Haiz... It's so difficult to get a flat, how to get married younger n have babies??? Xing says he might have children earlier than me... Just wondering how possible is that? Hahaha... He is a bro with great faith la...

Ken is so busy at work, earning money.... I feel like I'm unemployed beside him... Everyday he has to travel so far to work and come back so late. I wonder next time when we get married le, will it still be the same? He seems so stressed out and I dunno what I can do to help... And we're trained in different fields, I cant help him do his work and he cant help me with mine too... Not like last time back in school, where we can copy each other's notes... Hmmmm, rather he can copy my notes... Hahaha...

I'm just waiting in the office now for time to pass. Today has been quite a long day cos I'm still in office now... Hahaha... Hmmmmmm... Reached at 9, now 630 --> 8.5 hrs of work le. But Ken reached office at 7am and is still working now. So I got no complains la... He more zai than me... I look up to him... Dear, u're the strongest!!!

Hahaha... Physically quite tired... My throat hasnt been good, inflamed tonsils? Dunno if that's called that... u know there are like 3 things which u can see at the back of ur throat when u open ur mouth? one on top like a u and another 2 on its left n rite? my left n rite ones are swollen, perpetually swollen these few weeks... Think I've been talking too much... With counselling that stretches to 3am and new friends to meet up n go extra svc with and pm and all... It's taking a toil on my throat... I shld rest more, talk less... Dun call me... Hmmmm, can call me, but u do the talking... Hahaha... Yep yep... I want to go out, but yet dunno where to go also... haiz... headache ah... bored...

Wedding - it's so stressful

2008-09-15T17:10:00.002+08:00

Hahaha... Even as we start to plan for it... suddenly realised the many many decisions which we have to make, and these are just made once in a lifetime kind. Hmmmmmmm, not the person that i'll be marrying la... But things like where to hold the dinner, restaurant or hotel. which day? how many ppl to invite...

the choices are endless... and my headache also endless... too many to choose from!!! zzzzz.... stressed man... plus needa meet the needs of parents... n ken... zzzzzzzzzz.... God, you got to come in n help, dun want relationships to turn sour cos of this joyous occasion...

Attitudes a good helper needs to have

2008-09-14T18:33:00.002+08:00

I was sharing with Tim n Xing some attitudes a good helper must carry... So thought of putting here, you can use if you want... :)

As the church grows, we all need to rise up, to bcome helpers of the cell group to contain the growth. So we need to work closely with our leaders, know the vision of the church, the cell group. We all need to become a helper to our leaders.

So we need to carry 4 attitudes. (note that this list is not exhaustive, but personally I feel that they are the most impt)

1. We need to honour our leaders.
1 Tim 5:17
Our leaders, esp CGLs are worthy of double honour. We got to give them what is due to them. Protect their reputation, shield them from arrows and dun sabo them. We all got to have the fear of God in our lives and also reverent the man of God.

2. We need to understand our leaders.
The bible says how can 2 walk together unless they agree? So how can we work together with our leader unless we agree, unless we flow with them? We need to know the heart of our leader. The things which he is passionate about, urgent about, uptight about, the things which he likes, dislikes...

So how can we know the heart of our leader?
We got to be the ones pressing into their lives, taking the initiative, spending time with the leader, fellowshipping.
We got to pray always for our leader cos we communicate spirit to spirit. We got to observe and learn. The Holy Spirit will help us. (1 Jn 2:27)
We got to remain teachable, quick to change.

3. We need to support our leaders.
Encourage him, pray for and with him also also be with him, running the race together. The things which are delegated to us, do them well, with an excellent spirit...

4. We need to love our leaders.
Love covers all. 1 Thes 3:14
With love you will go all the way for ur leader, know wat to do and say at the right time.

The bible is a book of love... God's love for us...

Heb 13:17 Highlight this verse!!! Make it a point for our leaders to disciple us in joy, a breeze, something enjoyable for them...

No time to elaborate... But the main points are here le. Hope that you'll meditate and have some revelations on how to be a good helper to ur leader. Be one who is ever-ready to go...

Upset

2008-09-11T18:05:00.002+08:00

Haiz.... Just ganna scolding from 2 different group / ppl one after another... Zzzzzzzz.... Feeling so upset, but haiz... Guess it's part n parcel of life... Was just chatting with my friend that I'll ren... I can tahan one... Then after that faints man... Ganna scolded by 2 ppl!!! Not one but 2!!! It felt like u think u can ren??? Haiz... Felt so irritated... But well, it's over... And I am still alive... Hahaha... So what cant kill u will make u stronger... I feel that I am stronger... I can withstand questionings now... I used to detest it lots n will avoid them at all costs... Guess that's not the way to deal with things... Avoidance is a coward way of handling things... I need to face things. Stop being a coward Qin...

Well... I will... I will work on this area...

Anyway, this afternoon there was a paging for me to go to the reception... I used to think that it's to collect documents, flowers, presents all those things, but I realised that it's not... Some clients will come and look for u and the receptionist will page you to come and take care of your own client... So ya lo, i was so naive... But I always like to be paged to go receive gifts... hope i can get another surprise before i leave... wahahah... **hint hint** hahaha...

I was telling my friend that i received flowers once... From dear... think 2 years back ba... think 8 years anniversary ba... So sweet... I wanna get called to receive presents... Hahaha... Go order present then ask them to deliver to me in office huh? Lame... Ok ok... Just imagine mah... hahaha... Entertain my own thoughts.... Kekekeke....

Refreshed...

2008-09-10T18:18:00.002+08:00

I went to powerhouse just now... Was praying for God's love to fill me once again so that it'll be easy to love the ppl ard me and work on integrating them... And also prayed for word for this season of my life...

In Eph 6:5 Bondservants, be obedient to those who are your masters according to the flesh, with fear and trembling, in sincerity of heart, as to Christ; 6 not with eyeservice, as men-pleasers, but as bondservants of Christ, doing the will of God from the heart, 7 with goodwill doing service, as to the Lord, and not to men, 8 knowing that whatever good anyone does, he will receive the same from the Lord, whether he is a slave or free. (NKJV)

In my everyday work, this will be the attitude which I am going to work with now... it's been quite a drag to go to work each day as i do not know wat to expect... but guess now, with this word, it might be easier to go to work each morning...

Met Jean just now, bought her a tub of Ben n Jerry's... Hee... SO timely, she finished hers last nite... Wahahha... And so much for helping her to lose weight huh? hee... Yep, her bday tml... so it was early birthday presie for her... Yep...

I also prayed for amount to give for the upcoming BF... Especially when I'm trying to save for my wedding... Wow! Amazing... I hope that God will confirm the amount again... I pray that I'll be blessed mightily as I obey in faith... I think I'm going to outdo myself again... Hmmmm... A great challenge, so need more confirmations... Hahaha... Dun wanna hear wrongly... Heh...

3.5 more weeks to go... God help me... Keep me busy... But to enjoyable work??? And also no OT if possible??? Heh... I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me! Hee.... Counting down...

Emotional Roller Coaster

2008-09-08T17:19:00.002+08:00

Been feeling as if I'm on an emotional roller coaster recently... Maybe cos of the upcoming changes that are going to happen in my life. Looking forward to it, but on the other hand, a little fearful cos it's a totally new area? And I have been giving myself mental pressure that I need to perform there... Haiz... I think no one understands that kind of butterfly feeling in me now... I shouldnt be feeling this way, I know I should have peace. Hmmm... Yes, there's peace but still that jittery feeling still exists.

Ken has been asking me questions like tell me how u feeling, wat u thinking... My mind just went blank... Haiz... I wanna talk, I wanna share, but there seems to be so much change that it feels a little overwhelming... Haiz... Why why why? Weird...

Anyway... I wanna get married soon... Feel overwhelmed by the idea also... Hahaha... Maybe we'll bring forward by 1 year!!! Hmmmm, it means next year... Faints... Dunno wat to do to get started... Overwhelmed... I wanna get off the roller coaster... Zzzz.... Dun like this... Haiz...

Why am I not sleeping?

2008-09-03T23:51:00.011+08:00

Cos it's not my bedtime yet... Haiz... Although got to wake early tml but just not sleepy... Went to 3 diff malls today. 1st 2 for work, 3rd to find my friend who was doing work there. Then I went to walk that last mall cos she nt done. I walked n walked n walked n walked... think abt 4 hrs? or even more... went to their bookshop n bought some cards cos cheap... Heh... Then walked n walked... Ate dinner alone cos she nt done... Can faint... Hahaha...

The malls there are huge! It's like all the expo halls combined? then 2 storeys... the malls are so big they could have an ice-skating rink in the middle? n it's bigger than the jurong east one but it didnt fill up the 'atrium' of the mall? And after walking for 4 hrs +, i didnt finish the mall? Yep... the shops are so widely spaced that to cross over the aisle it takes abt 30 walks? yep... n the mall is not just one aisle kind? there are so many that i was confused... But that's the 3rd largest mall in the world la... hahaha... nice view also, u can walk out to the extension n see the see ard it. it is built on reclaimed land... yep... amazing...

oh ya, i travelled from the most north train station to the most south train station today also... hahha... via cab... costs abt 250peso, which is S$8? ha! their starting is abt $1 and each increment is less than 10cents. So cabs are quite cheap...

Oh ya, I ate krispy kreme yesterday! bought one, they gave a complimentary piping hot one... Shiok! But super fattening... hahaha... Apparently the ppl here eat a lot of sweet stuff... I like sweet things but i find them too sweet le... i think ken will die here... hahaha...

i went to Gerry's Grill for dinner alone jus now. things there are quite ok ba... Normally ppl order rice n liao to eat, i just ate the liao cos not that hungry. I took the blue marlin steak... i think it's a kind of fish? think the one who swam with nemo? hahaha... yep... i killed it... hahaha... but it was nice... shiok... hahaha... i think u can see the pict... delicious... just a little on the salty side, but it's meant to be eaten with rice, so ok la.... costs abt S$10.

I've been to a few restaurants here... 1st nite went to Gubba Gum... Interesting... Mostly shrimp, prawn kinda food. Tue nite went to Italiann... Food was ok, but pretty ex. Today went for lunch at tgif... prices are ok also. normal restaurant kind of price ba, like fish n co that range. i wonder wat to eat tml... think can try jolibee... i think it's a fast food chain here... hope can end super early with little discrepancies to resolve...

Zzzzzzzzzz.... I shld go sleep le... I'll post the photos up... Not that clear cos my hp is dirty... hahaa... nvm, i changing soon... soon... before the end of the yr... same as my job... hahaha... hopefully... yep... stay tuned for more updates on that... Wahahhaa.... Photos for now...

The fork is so big la... How to eat with it?! I used the small one of course. I demure ma... Hahaha....

Presenting the blue marlin steak!!!

A nite shot of that same place...

The name says it all...

The sky from SM Mall of Asia... Beautiful! Too bad I dun have wide angle cam...

The 'jeep-nies'? Small 'buses', super dangerous but cheapest trspt ard. think starts from 8pesos.

Artistic angle??? Hee...

The malls are linked. I can walk sheltered all the way to dunno where, havent tried walking to the end, scared i get lost. hahha...

The mall 20 walks from my hotel's side entrance...

So pretty...

Another angle

Sunset view from my room...

The other donuts which I tried... The one i got was a New York Cheesecake, the choco one is my colleague give me one...

The piping hot glazed donut... Yummy!!!

Kripspy Kreme...

I think the sequence is wrong, shld be bottom up but i lazy to change... Heh... Chatted with the staff today, learnt quite a lot abt Manila n Philippines... Well, their situation abt the same as ours... N the ppl there are nicer... In the sense that they are more helpful, friendly, patient n hospitable! Yes, their streets seem dangerous. Their air is bad... Dun do deep breathing in outdoors. But their ppl are nice... Hahaha... Maybe I get to meet all the nice ppl ba... I'm blessed! Yeah... Ok, bedtime le... Will update soon i hope...

Greetings from Manila...

2008-09-02T16:11:00.002+08:00

Here I am in Manila... 1st time coming here... Well, this place is not that bad, as in not that dangerous la... But the air is really bad... But the ppl are polite and nice and patient. Their service is good la...

So why am I blogging at this hour of time... Well, today we finished our work early n have sent in the deliverables. Went to a cheap place to shop... Called 'green hills', not that near, had to cab there, but it was good la...

I bought lots of things... Heh... For my family... haha... A pair of sneakers for my bro, a little miss naughty top for my sis, handkies for my dad, a smartwrap for ken, a body lotion for Ken's mom n a top for denzel. Yep. Think will see if can get some food back. Spent too much le. :p But well, I think I wont be coming back here anytime soon or even coming back, so muz get now... Heh...

Think today is like the only day that we can enjoy... So muz enjoy the rest of today... Tml onwards is back to long hours of work le... I hope i can finish fast fast then can walk ard... Yeah! Be back soon... Fri nite... :)

Bye!!!!!

2008-08-31T12:04:00.002+08:00

Hey ppl... I'm at the airport now... Walking ard til it's time to get on the plane... Chanced upon this place that has free terminals for internet access so decided to bid farewell to all before I leave...

This is really the 1st time that I am taking a plane - SQ plane on my own, hmmmm, with one other gal la... But I decided to not meet her before this... Try out doing things on my own... Yep... Am proud of myself... Left home on my own, took bus to the station and then train all the way here... Checked in my luggage... And later, I'll go board the plane on my own... Wished that my friends are here with me, but well, one has to learn to be independent... Heh...

So yep... This year has indeed been an interesting year... And it doesnt end here... I've went to bkk, batam, bintan and also msia in this year... And now to manila... Although it's all still in SEA, but i think this is the 1st time i've left the country so many times... Ken keeps saying that these are not considered chu guo... But well, I think he's jealous... Hahaha... Yeah... So to all my friends, do take care of one another and dun miss me...

it's really a very short trip... back on fri nite... Yep... So do help me take care of Ken... I think he'll be bored... Jio him out and pei him kk? Thanks guys... See ya soon...

this keyboard not nice to use... my wrist very tired... bye...

I'm leaving again....

2008-08-29T00:21:00.003+08:00

This time to Manila... Short trip... Dunno why I dun seem to be spending my weekends in spore... Kinda tired... But well, I pray that my capacity will enlarge... And now towards the end of the year... I know that it's going to enlarge even even more... So just stretch me in the last quarter of the year... Slowly God, slowly... Hahaha...

God muz be thinking... This gal ah.. Wanna me to stretch still muz be at her rate... Haiyo... Hahahaha... Ok... I think I'm dreaming too much... Hahaha... Just letting my mind rest and relax a little... Feeling the headache coming cos too stressed...

Well well... On a more serious note... Pls take care of urself while I'm away... Especially my loved ones... If you're free, do give them a call, help me take care of them while I'm away... Not too long... Will be back on fri nite... departing on sun afternoon... So dun miss me too much... hahahaha... well, dun think i'll get anything from there... from wat i see, the schedule seems quite tight... not sure if i'll have any time to shop man... hahaha... Pray for safety for me... and that i'll be well... Yep... so take care... maybe when i'm back, i'll be able to see Nigel!!! Hahaha... If he comes out, pls can someone take the initiative to inform aunty for me??? If not she'll kill me when I return... heh... Oh ya, I got roaming... can still contact me hor...

Brokenness before growth

2008-08-29T00:08:00.002+08:00

Finally managed to find some time to blog abt this before I fly off again... Last fri zone meeting, Jeremy shared something so simple what yet so true... Some takeaways from the meeting...

1) How to keep the fire always burning?
A) Word -- Revelation
B) Prayer
C) Holy Spirit
D) Mixing ard with more spiritual ppl (ppl of faith)

2) Where will the church be in 10 years time?
100,000 members worshipping in a stadium...

How can we reach there? We need to grow...

Growth STOPS when all of us become inward looking and self-centered. We cannot allow that to happen. We got to care abt others! How can we overcome inward looking and self-centeredness???

BROKENNESS

A heart that is broken by the grace of God... Having the fear of God.

Cos... ...

Without brokenness, you cannot
1) release the presence of God within you
2) touched by the presence of God
3) be used mightily by God

Make a decision today... That you'll be a steward of your talents and skills given to you by Abba Father... Let the love and generosity flow out of you... Only when the vessel is broken that the fragrance can fill the room... Come before God broken... That without Him, you are nothing and can do nothing... Yes, without Him, I'll lose the purpose of living...

Bintan Trip...

2008-08-25T10:40:00.010+08:00

Yep yep... I just came back from my Bintan trip... We stayed in Bintan Lagoon Resort... It was quite relaxing... But the wet weather did dampen our spirits a little and the things which we could do was limited by it... But I slept very well there... The bed was real comfy... too bad i only to to sleep for a nite... Hahaha... I got a room to myself cos my roomie couldnt go as she couldnt finish her work in time for the meeting on Mon...

And weird was that I stayed in 3143... Level 3 of the east wing... I was the only gal in my group staying in the '1' side and only person in the group in the east wing staying on level 3... The rest were mostly on level 4. But I took care of myself well... Hee... Double locked my door everytime I reached back... So am very safe... Hahaha... See photos taken of my room...

View of my room from the front door...

View of my room from the backdoor...

The comfy beds...

The chatting area...

My bathtub...

My toilet...

View of my room with the curtains pulled back...

The 'balcony' area from inside my room...

View from my room's balcony?

Really liked my room, the blue bedsheets and all... The beach was on the other side of the corridor... So I didnt get the beach view, but i took a photo of it while walking to the lobby area for breakfast... Really nice view... But this photo doesnt do justice to it though... Well I took it with my hp... Didnt bring my cam there mah... Heh...

View of the beach from the hotel lobby level...

It was wet wet wet weather when we reached in the afternoon... Couldnt do much, we went to the villa to play games, indoor games, gt to know the ppl better... Yep... Thank God the sun came out on Sun morn so that we could play some beach games... We played captain's ball then beach volley... I dun like volley so didnt play that... I played the captain's ball.. was the one standing on the chair... Our team won!!! Hahaha... We had Jeremy and Ling Teck in our team, they're tall... Hahaha... Anyway, I fell off the chair at the start of the game and landed on the sand... Hahaha... But am ok... I lost my balance while reaching for the ball... Kekeke... Well, it's not that easy standing on a chair put into the sand on the beach lo... And with tall defender standing rite in front of u, it's dangerous... And when they accidentally kick ur chair... Woh... Dangerous man... Hahaha... But had fun... Although it was only 4 min... But our ppl were so tired after it... Too unhealthy le... Hahaha... Thank God I was assigned to stand on the chair... Hee... Dun needa run around... Wahahaha...

Then we washed out and checked out... I went over to my friend's room... The '0' rooms, the west wing... Their rooms more Zen... I dun think i'll go back there... Though the rooms are nice and all, but the hotel was quite inflexible... Didnt allow us to book bus in to bring us out... And with the rain, there was nothing to do... And the cab out costs $22! so ex... I feel Batam more worth it... Heh... Anyway, see photos taken below...

Room 1011...

From the backdoor...

Another angle...

Yep, we then booked a cab and went to pasar ole ole... Cos it seems to be the only shopping place ard... But it started raining and pouring again... Quite sian... But ok la... Last few hrs le... so muz maximise it... Think we took the ferry back and went home straight... too tired le... Reached home washed up and zzzzzzzzzzzzz..... Hee... And today is a brand new week... :)

Next post will be on the Fri zone meeting... Didnt have time to blog abt it before I left... Powerful meeting... Those who didnt managed to go... It's such a waste... sad...

A more affordable bday present...

2008-08-25T10:34:00.002+08:00

Hahaha... Ok ok, I know what I want le... I want a new wallet!!! Wahahaha... Yep, I just bought one in BKK, but well... It's a little small... Dun have enough slots for my cards... Not credit cards la, more of discount cards, membership cards... So I want a new wallet... A lasting one... The last one which my CG gave me was good... Hee...

Things I muz have in a wallet, coins compartment... Then lots of card slots... Think need to be a long wallet... But not too big... muz be able to fit into my lesportsac bag... hee... Hahaha... Design wise I'm quite alright... But dun want to flambouyant colours... N white... it gets dirty easily... Dun like... Hahaha...

Yep yep... that's abt all... I'll continue thinking... brainstorming for more ideas... This year has been really an enriching year... God is good... :)

How to keep the fire burning???

2008-08-22T10:30:00.002+08:00

In every relationship, it's easy to let the fire burn out... But it's impt to let it continue to burn and ever stronger each passing day... Til the day when u pass away... This applies to relationships bet girl n boy n also bet man n God... It's the same... It takes commitment and great love... But the reward is sweet...

It saddens me to see ppl breakup or backslide cos the fire is no longer there... There are times in relationships that u just feel like giving up, feel like you dun want to put in any more effort cos u dun see the reward... But u muz rem that the reward is sweet... It's a journey together... In tough times, you gt to cling onto each other closer and walk thru it together. We all know that tough times is not forever, it's temporary and wat's best is that at the end of the day, you'll be closer with ur partner!

Press on! Persevere on! Hang on! The reward is near... :)

Bad habits movie review

2008-08-20T15:49:00.002+08:00

I went to watch this movie last nite alone... Thank God I went alone and paid only $6. Hahaha... An artistic movie... And it started on time... I was a little late and missed a bit of the intro... but ok la, still managed to understand the story... And it was not in English!!! I also dunno wat language, but was just reading the subtitles...

It's mainly abt the story abt a nun... Mainly abt the life when she was in the church... She prayed to God... But her concept is so wrong la... She prayed for God to heal, to stop the rain... Then she torture herself to show God her sincerity... She drank vinegar, ate food with lots of salt, ate trash then fasted til she was warded... Haiyo... My God heals, but not by works... It's by faith! And it's God's sovereignity whether a person will be healed or nt; or whether the rain will stop or not... So wrong man... I pray that ppl in the theatre will know that this is not the way God moves...

Then at the same time there was a plump little girl whose mom is super skinny and she was made to lose wt, cos her mom found her too fat. They went to lots of clinics, paid lots but the gal is still the same... And she was scolded and all... This is so unhealthy... Haiz... In the end, the mom died... Cos she was too skinny... But kept working out and not eating to lose weight... Can faint...

The ending was also very abrupt... I dun understand... But anyway, it was a time of entertainment for that 1 hr 43 min...

Remembrance

2008-08-20T09:43:00.002+08:00

I was in CHC Powerhouse @ HOG this morn... I began thinking of my leaders who've shared their lives with me over the past years... Looking back, I've been in church for 8 years! Wow!!! Hahaha... Nothing to boast abt as this is just a small part of the lifetime which I'll be spending in church...

The 1st CGL I came into contact with was Khen Theen... He continues to inspire me. A teacher by profession and a teacher indeed. Always patient and having resources to share... He is always reading a book which is always faith-building! Amazing. I look up to him as my teacher... :)

Then Edwin became my CGL when we multiplied. He taught me the importance of having goals in my life and working hard to achieving them. That period of time was the time which my christian foundations are laid.

Subsequently Javiny took over our CG. During her leadership, I learnt lots... How to be a helper and supporter and encourager... She never fails to encourage me and challenge me to step out of my comfort zone. I love her so much that I want to help her to grow the group... Her vision became mine... She always tell us to be Spirit led. Our CG vision was to be a group of Spirit led believers. She never tells me what to do. Always tell me to pray and seek God for myself and to be led by the Spirit to do the right thing.

It wasnt easy for her to lead our CG as she came in as our new CGL, not someone who rose up within the CG... Yep... But she did great... She was there when i go thru tough times. Always willing to lend a listening ear.

She was the one who trained Ken up to be a CGL. Here he is, 4 years into this ministry. She gave Ken the stronger members during multiplication, and a great helper to her, she gave me to his group. To be his helper instead. Ken has always felt indebted to her... Like she gave him the opportunity and all... Discipled him...

I still remember, there was one day which she asked me to do some PA for her which I turned down cos it was our anniversary... Not exactly anni as in Feb but one of the month's 10th. She was nt angry or upset that I refused to help, but she given bought a $40 voucher for us to go and makan... Ken was still in army then... And I remember that place... Holland Village, English Rose Cafe... I really felt so blessed.

She also blessed us $$$ when we went for our 1st mission trip... That was after we multiplied!!! She's always so giving and I feel she really played a part in ensuring that our relationship works out fine.

She's my sis... An elder sis whom I nvr had... I love her lots and pray for her everyday that her business will do well...

Then we multiplied and Ken became my CGL. Hmmmm... How has it been being in the same CG as Ken? Hmmmm... I guess it's fine... Hahaha... I'm still his helper... I try to relax if the other ppl in the CG are willing to rise up. But I can and will come in and put my hands to the plough and get things done when they arent moving... I train up more disciplers and help disciple the members... Ken treat me as a member of the CG, it's more like us leading the CG together... But he doesnt talk to me abt issues abt me which he feels is not rite or I didnt do things rite... I share this burden with him and encourage him... This has been so for over the past 4 years and I dun think it'll change...

Well... This post is a post for me to remember the leaders (CG side) who have been part of my walk with God... I pray for everyone of them to be ever on fire for God, like how they've always preached to me when I was younger in the Lord... God bless u all... :) Hugs...

Our relationship has matured....

2008-08-19T16:51:00.002+08:00

I was lying in bed last nite and thinking of all the things which we have bought each other... He has always been the one who buy things for me... And I usually return by giving him favours, not really material things... Hmmmmm...

Think our 3rd month anni, he bought me a "Garfield" bracelet...
Then that Xmas he bought me a pop swatch watch...

I remember these very vividly cos his "good" buddy told me that he was short of a couple of dollars and borrowed money from him to buy the bracelet... And at Sec 3 these things cost quite a big percentage of our allowances... So was really really moved when he bought these things for me...

Subsequently, he also showered me with presents here and there... A bouquet of flowers during days in SA (v-day)... His friends were stunned... Cos just the day before he just said that flowers are a waste of money... Hahaha... so cute...

He also stunned me with a bouquet of flowers on our 10th anni... 4 days before v-day... He sent the flowers to my office... So sweet... Some ppl thot like v-day brought forward... Hahaha... But well... I still remember... That was my A-10 days... Then my A11 went to tell my MIC then she also came into the cave to talk to me and I think is to purposely look at my flowers one lo... An excuse... Haiz... Hahaha... So funny la...

Dear is a very practical person... He seldom buy flowers cos it's temporary... The latest present he gave me is the ring on my finger... It's really a heavy investment for him... 4-digit!!! Hahaha... I know that my dear really really loves me... I feel so so so blessed... Hahaha... I think all u attached ppl and married ppl are thinking thru all the nice things which ur bf and hubbies had done for u rite??? Hahahha... And those single ones are dreaming and imagining rite??? Wahahaha...

This relationship has gone thru lots... From the time when we are both in school where I've always helped him in... Cos he's too smart... Plays too hard cos he knows he has a gf who's diligent, hardworking... Hahaha... But it's true wat... Hee... Now, we're both working le... Amazing how God maintains this relationship... Really shen qi... Hahaha... My classmates marvel too... He comes for my class outing, I go for his... It's like I'm part of his class and he's mine too... We know each other's friends... We try to get each other to meet our closer friends, in school or work... Yep... Hee... We are a team... If u think of Ken, you'll definitely think of me... and if u think of me, u'll think of Ken... Rite rite??? Hee...

We're stepping closer and closer to our next phase of lives... Dear keeps teasing me that I cant wait to get married... haiz... so paiseh... It's not that I wanna get married soon... It's that I want to be closer to him everyday... Yep yep... Nowadays dunno why, keep missing him so much... He also... This is so weird... Hahaha... We're still trying to figure things out.... After 10 years++ but still have this longing... Really weird... I dun understand and cant explain... I wont try... Hahaha...

A new beginning soon???

2008-08-19T16:41:00.002+08:00

Haiz... So sian... I wish I can be on leave everyday... Dun need to do any work... Y 3 years pass so slowly one... Hmmmmm... Not that slow, but the last few months seem so so so long... Haiz... There's got to be more that is out there for me...

And my dear dear... Still adjusting to his new work... Think for this young man, the transition is quite tough cos he has not worked before... Hmmmm... For a long time... He has worked temp as a telemarketeer and also some admin here n there, but not a few months kind of work... I also dunno how I can help him transit faster except to encourage him and support him... I think i said this in my last post... Well, things are still the same... Hahaha...

Been thinking a lot abt this relationship... How we been through these 10 years plus and whether by getting married earlier will be easier for us... We are spending so much time and effort arranging to meet... I was telling him imagine i can just tell him... I go home 1st and wait for u... Rest a bit then when he comes back I can serve him (assume I work shorter hours or my office is nearer home)... He closed his eyes and said smilingly, that sounds good... Hahaha... I wonder if our married lives will be like that.... Hee... Think daydreaming too much... Watching smiling pasta... "wei xiao pasta" It's a love romance serial for teenagers... But it's really funny and I've been really entertained by this couple... Some of the things I see us in it, so maybe that's why I like it... Hahaha... Dreaming... But that gal is too much a dreamer... Imagination super power... I not so kua zhang... hahaha... Yeah...

A year of enlarging indeed

2008-08-18T12:13:00.002+08:00

Amazing... This year has really been an amazing year... I didnt know I could do so much... But with God's strength and grace of course... Hee...

I've been waking up early this week... I've overcame my peak period as a snr... I've gotten my CPA... Ermz, soon... Cos I have yet to reach my 3 years, but I've passed my CPA exams... Yeah... And soon I know that i'll get my driving licence by the end of this year as well...

Been spending lots of time with Ken but he still doesnt feel enough... Think cos his work requires lots of thinking... and he's always tired.. so he wants me to encourage him, strengthen him, support him that kind of thing? Yep... Missing him lots n lots... Despite spending so much time with him... Hahaha... Weird...

Even after so many years, we still feel sad when we have to part and go home... Yep... And i've nvr stayed over at his house before... It's the right thing to do... Yep... And to all the attached couples out there... It is NOT alright to stay over at each other's house. So change ur lifestyle. Dun u have ur own bed? Even now when he's my fiance, I dun stay over... And he doesnt come over to stay as well... This is so that we will treasure each other more next time when we are married... Yeap...

Each day I hope that it'll pass faster... Time seems to pass so slowly without Ken ard and too fast when Ken's ard... Haiz... Let's see... 10 years, 6 mths and 8 days... Well, this is short, compared to the no of years we'll be living together for the rest of our lives...

Anyway, I've started to look at ideas of planning our wedding... It wont be so soon, but it's nvr too early to start... Hee... do give me ideas if u have any kk? Hahaha... :)

Touching...

2008-08-16T01:14:00.002+08:00

Was randomly surfing the net when I chanced upon this entry... Touching... I hope that Ken will carry me everyday in future too... Hahaha... He sure say I needa lose weight 1st... Haiz...

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand
and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly.
Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to
open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a
divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my
words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This
made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are
not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I
knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I
could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, she had lost my heart to a
lovely girl called Dew. I didn't love her anymore ..I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated
that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She
glanced at it and then tore it into pieces.

The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a
stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I
could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally
she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see.
To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which
had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing
something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep
and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with
Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just
did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she
presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but
needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that
one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her
reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a months time and she
didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable
to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had
carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that
everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the
front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our
last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and
thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to
face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn't had any body
contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I
carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son
clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought
me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the
door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes
and said softly, don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling
somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for
the bus to work. I drove alone to the office. >

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my
chest.. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I
hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realised she
was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair
was greying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I
wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy
returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.
On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was
growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry
her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me
stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite
a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my
dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so
thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it
hit me, .. she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart.
Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum
out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an
essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer
and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I
might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms,
walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her
hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly,
it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me
sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a
step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't
noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the
door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked
upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not
want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my
forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head.
Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring
probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not
because we didn't love each other any more . Now I realise that since I
carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her
until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a
loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears.

I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I
ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to
write on the card. I smiled and wrote: I'll carry you out every morning
until death do us apart . The small details of our lives are what really
matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the
money in the bank, blah..blah..blah. These create an environment
conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find
time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each
other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you, but if you do,
you just might save a marriage.

- Author unknown -

TGIF

2008-08-15T09:15:00.001+08:00

It's friday!!! Period. :)

Time is ticking out...

2008-08-14T17:36:00.001+08:00

My predicted death date... Thursday, December 8, 2061... Seems like I'll die earlier than Ken... But that is based on some assumptions, that i'm normal, not optimistic, and wt is overweight... Hahaha... Nvm... Just a bo liao thing to entertain me for a few minutes...

My spirit leaps...

2008-08-14T09:04:00.002+08:00

Been going for the morning prayer meetings... it's a struggle to wake up so early cos i'm not a morn person... But my heart is willing... And my mom has been waking me up... cos i set my alarm before she leaves home... So she thot i going office early... so she'll wake me up... heh...

Happy to be in the presence of God every morning... Overcoming my flesh and crying out to God to come and meet me, fill me, be with me thru each day... Luv our psts and church too, every morn will prepare nice nice bf for us... It's a bonus to me... I see our psts also love us lots, will think of our needs and how to meet them.

Most happy is that I can meet my dear every morning... Hee... Love being with him... I think we meet almost everyday... But I miss him even more each day as we part to go work... Hahaha... This is getting mushy... Ok ok... Ya, everyone, it's time to get back to work, or rather start the day of work... Jiayou!!!

Oh ya, CGM changed to Sun morn le... Cant sleep in... :( But well... I can meet God and my CG ppl... N especially my dear... Yeah...

Reflections...

2008-08-11T13:07:00.002+08:00

Been taking things slower now... Trying to see things from a higher point of view... Helping to fine tune the ppl around me, who are open to my discipleship... N at the same time, working on my weak areas. Finding feedback from my leaders to improve myself. This process doesnt stop. If it stops or even slows down, it means my heart has grown cold... I pray that this will nvr happen... Like Qi, I got to guard my heart and mind... Doesnt mean that being church for a longer period of time means that I am shielded from all these temptations... Yep...

I went for the morning pm at HOG just now... Reached late, but the whole place was full.... Very nice place, but too small to contain everyone of us... I was standing but I really dun mind... The presence of God was so strong... So easy to get into the presence of God... I was weeping before God... Tears just kept flowing like beyond control.. I met Dev n we prayed for the CG... Can feel that she shares the burden... I pray that more ppl can rise up n be responsible, loving and the whole CG be united... Met a few other leaders there n some friends... Chatted with them n it was great fellowship... Spoke to Kelvin Chua, Rachael, Weemin, Khen Theen (my 1st CGL - a very inspiring man), Pst Tan! Yep, he asked me abt the PM on his way out of the hall. Saw Pst Zhuang, Pst Audrey and Pst Aries as well... Looking at them, it's like looking at a group of ppl who have grown up in the Lord together, closest of friends... I pray that next time when our youths have all started working, we will still see each other in church, and meet up once in a while, all still planted and doing their part for the house of God...

Went for breakfast with Dev at Delifrance then we parted at 10... Hahha... But it was great time spent together... I pray that the things I shared with her, she'll remember and begin to work on them...

Then took a bus to airport and on the way, I was observing the ppl ard me... Quite interesting... I think God's presence has taken away all the fatigue... Yep yep...

Going to meet Rach later... Miss her much... Havent seen her for some time le... I think we'll have fun later... Hahaha...

Was just chatting with Xing on the phone last nite... He just came back from MISSIONS!!! Hahaha... He's indeed a changed man... From the day I 1st saw him in SAJC... Wahahaha....

Was just telling Devina that we've been together for almost a month!!! We came together in Oct... So abt 10 months le... Time really flies... N the dynamics of the CG has changed much too... Ppl have joined, ppl have left... Ppl have stagnanted, ppl have grown... But in all these, God is still in control. He's the God of all, He reigns... I feel that for myself... These coming few months left in this year is a time of shaping up the ppl... I'm going to enlarge my capacity... Not just the ppl in my connect group... But in the whole CG... N in my ministry... I want to help you to be a member of the church... Or at least ur character gets better, ur attitude towards things to improve...

I'm going to do my part in this CG... So if I call up ur ppl n disciple them... Dun get angry with me k? If u dun like it, let me know... I'll leave those ppl under ur care alone... If you want me to help, let me know... I'll pray abt it n see who is willing to be discipled... Now is not a slacking time... It's a time of sowing, working... For those exam ppl, ur need to fight the zzzzzzzz monster, the spirit of lethargy, complancency, laziness, tiredness, arrogance... Study hard n shine for God... Ur future is in your OWN hands... Dun blame others if you dun do well... You got to take responsibility for ur own actions...

Just read Jan's blog... He quoted from Pst Mark Conner's 2nd day msg... Maturity doesnt come with age... It comes with responsibility... So to become matured, you GOT TO take on responsibility... And one who has been proven to be faithful will be given more... So avail urself as the 1st time... There are tons of things to be done. If you want to help and got nothing to do, let me know... I'll find for u... AS every member begins to avail themselves, the CG is bound to grow... So EVERYONE plays a part... STOP SLACKING WILL YOU??? BUT... If you're not willing, it's ok... Dun need to do things with a 'forced' attitude... There are many more willing ppl out there... I read somewhere in the bible that God uses willing ppl not able ppl... If you're willing and not able, God will make you able... But if you're able but not willing, God will not use you... So I pray for more and more willing ppl... Willing to go all the way for God... ALL the WAY... ALL the WAY... ALL... ALL... Are u one such person??? Look into ur heart and ask urself...

Addition to wishlist...

2008-08-11T12:58:00.002+08:00

Oh ya, I need a new pair of sunglass!!! Yeah... Wanted to get a pair from BKK, but Ken says sunglass muz get good ones, to protect the eyes from the rays... So cannot get those fake kind... Later I go blind... Hahaha... Yeah, so I want a new pair of sunglass. The pair I using now is from Lillian, years back... Yep, treasured it much, but guess things will wear n tear... Oh ya, I dun like flimsy sunglass... Adidas one like not much support, I wore Ken's before... Dun like the feel... I prefer his oakley pair which his bro bought for him from Aust... Yeah...

So 3 things I can think of now...
1. sunglass
2. PSP with min 8gb memory card wif games n protective case
3. new hp... (yet to decide which one)

I'll continue thinking and adding... No need new bible, just got one last year... Hmmmmm... Dun mind SOT books, but dunno if going next year or next next year or next next next year ... ... ... Hmmmmmm, dunno if the syllabus will change... Hahaha...

Oh ya, clothes from Skin n ed hardy... Dun mind more of these... Hahaha...

I wanna lose some weight... Then I can showcase the clothes nicer... Hahaha...

My new nokia hp...

2008-08-07T10:19:00.002+08:00

I wanna get a good phone... Hmmmmmm... More functions so that i can spend time exploring my hp... 2 years... so better have more things to play with... Hahaha...

Was just browsing the nokia website... E66 looks good... Not much details on N96. Think cos it's not here yet... So thinking between E66 and N96... Think wait for N96 to come out then can compare the prices and then look at the specifications...

And I cant get a new hp til end of Sep... So now it's just waiting and researching time ba... Let me know if you know of any feedbacks from ppl using E66 or N96 kk? Hee... Thanks...

Wishlist

2008-08-06T10:43:00.002+08:00

I was out with Jean... Then she mentioned that our bdays are coming soon... Actually not so soon la... But well, it's nvr to early to start thinking of bday presents... Hahaha.... I wan a PSP... I keep snatching from Ken... It's hard to share... He keeps playing fighting games while I prefer puzzle games... Oh ya, a fully loaded PSP with a casing... Muz be specific... I'm not so particular abt colour... Hahaha... A large memory stick ==> > than 8gb...

Hmmmmm, what else... Dun really need shoes, accessories, bags... I have lots... Clothes... dun mind ed hardy ones... but it's not a top priority...

Let's see... I want a driving licence... And then a car... Hahaha... Instalments paid for... Hmmmmm... And a HDB flat... I not greedy, 4-room can le... But muz be high floor!!! Hahaha... N nice view if possible... And windy... yep... Dear was visualising it that day, he's just so cute... Hahaha...

Ok, what else... Hmmmm... My CPA... Seems like all these except the 1st one is quite unobtainable as presents for me... Hahaha... Oh ya... I want a hp... A new hp... NOKIA one... But havent decided on the model, cos my contract nt up yet... So didnt bother looking at it...

Think contract ending at the end of the year, last few days of Dec, but think 18 mth can renew and get new hp le... So just nice, end sep... Yep... So help me look out ya? I wanna good one... It's going to last me for another 2 years man... Was thinking of N96, but it's not out yet... So dunno what's it's like... Hahaha... Ya lo, so I want more gadget things... Dun really need iPod... Cos I got my receiever... Still works perfectly well... Amazing... Think I bought it in JC2... Hahaha...

Lent xing my spare hp, so had to find alt radio for my journey to office, if not i'll be bus sick by the time i reach office... so i'll listen to gelnn n fd on the way to work... And i'll sleep... yep... somehow, God will wake me up just in time for me to alight...

Movies movies and more movies...

2008-08-06T09:57:00.002+08:00

Yep... I've been catching quite a number of movies recently... Hmmmmm... The bank job, red cliff 1, money no enough 2 and the mummy...

all quite nice except the ending to red cliff is a little disappointing? Yep... Caught money with dear on mon nite, mummy on tue nite... no movies today... cos going for bs...

I wanna do so much more things, but feel so restricted, so constrainted. Dunno why I have such feeling...

This is just a random post, not cos I'm too free, but I feel very confused... Hmmmmm... I dunno, it just feels weird... Hahaha...

Recently, there are lots of ppl who resigned... I wonder why I am still around... Hahaha... maybe that's why I feel so confused and so restrained... But i think I better stay put for now... Cos it's not time yet... This period of waiting is really quite intoxicating... Unbearable at times... I just hope it'll be over soon... Let time fly faster, faster... 2nd week into my secondment...

Things are going to change soon... Lots of things before the end of the year... This is getting a little uncontrollable and I dun like the feeling of losing control... But well, think sometimes we just have to let go and let God ba... Haiz... This feeling... Ok nvm, whining doesnt help... Just face it, qin! I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me... God is with me, who can be against me?! Yeah!!!

Fear not, for I am with you...

2008-08-04T17:11:00.002+08:00

My dear is employed!!! Yeah... We've gone through another phase together... He blogged abt his feelings after he didnt get the job... Hmmmm... Interesting... Extracted a portion of it... Hahaha...

"I must confess something that the moment I decided to give that up, I was able to step into love with Huiqin again. Yea, we're in love but I always had some reservations as I didn't want my departing in the future due to the nature of work to be a big blow to her. it's like not daring to love someone cos you know that you have limited time. You dun want to build it up just to see it falling down. Well, after making the decision, I dared to love 100%. That's one major and immediate difference."

Yeah, so we're more in love now... Hmmmmm... Hahaha... Praying that we'll get the house, an ideal unit... If you can see it, you can have it... I believe n see it...

I remember that time after I graduated, I also took quite long to find a permanent job. I was doing temp here and there... Before I started my audit life in Oct... Time has flown... Dear has graduated and was at the same cross-road as me. I realised that as long as you enjoy ur job, it's no longer a chore or painful thing to go thru... So I know that Dear will do well and have fun there... As I look forward to another phase of our lives, I know that more changes will come before the year is up. But in all things, I will always remember that God is in control. Thus there is no need to be gan chiong spiders... It doesnt help... Fret no, and trust God... "Fear not, for I am with you... "

Submitting & Obeying... Teachability

2008-08-02T09:58:00.002+08:00

This season of my life now is a little uncontrollable... Things are happening so fast... Hmmmmm.... But I know that this is like the 2nd half of the year already... And this is the year of enlargement for me... So things need to happen so that I can really expand my capacity... No time already, so muz faster come and so that I can stretch myself more... And after this year i will nvr be the same again... Able to cope with the stress and workload... I pray that I can do them well...

Recently i heard about some people whom I've discipled before and worked with being unwilling to change, unwilling to try out new things. I feel so sad... I know we all like to live in our comfort zone, but sometimes this is simply not the best thing to do. I pray that I will nvr come to a point where I am unwilling to change. I always remember Heb 13:17 Obey those who rule over you, and be submissive, for they watch out for your souls, as those who must give account. Let them do so with joy and not with grief, for that would be unprofitable for you. Shaun shared this with me... I was so blessed by it and I always remember it and make it my aim to do this...

And I pray that my disciples will always remain teachable... STOP reasoning and defending yourself!!! Just change la, if not spend time to ponder over it. Why do you keep defending yourself?! If you dun want my advice, then dun put urself under my care. Cos I am accountable for your every action... Haiz... Why cant you make my life easier...

Ok... I see the pict now... God is expaning my capacity... Putting thorns into my life for me to overcome them... I will endure and survive... I will... And I am willing... ARGH!!!

WHAT HAPPENS IN HEAVEN

2008-07-30T16:54:00.002+08:00

Wordy but SO TRUE... So I'll pass it on... To whoever reads this...

I dreamt that I went to Heaven and an angel was showing me around. We walked side-by-side inside a large workroom filled with angels. My angel guide stopped in front of the first section and said, 'This is the Receiving Section. Here, all petitions to God said in prayer are received.' I looked around in this area, and it was terribly busy with so many angels sorting out petitions written on voluminous paper sheets and scraps from people all over the world.

Then we moved on down a long corridor until we reached the second section. The angel then said to me, 'This is the Packaging and Delivery Section. Here, the graces and blessings the people asked for are processed and delivered to the living persons who asked for them. 'I noticed againhow busy it was there. There were many angels working hard at that station, since so many blessings had been requested and were being packaged for delivery to Earth.

Finally at the furthest end of the long corridor westopped at the door of a very small station. To my great surprise, only one angel was seated there, idly doing nothing.

'This is the Acknowledgment Section,' my angel friend quietly admitted to me. He seemed embarrassed.
'How is it that there is no work going on here?' I asked.
'So sad,' the angel sighed. 'After people receive the blessings that they asked for, very few send back acknowledgments.'
'How does one acknowledge God's blessings?' I asked.
'Simple,' the angel answered. Just say, 'Thank you,Lord.'
'What blessings should they acknowledge?' I asked.
'If you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof overhead and a place to sleep you are richer than 75% of this world. If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, and spare change in a dish, you are among the top 8% of the world's wealthy.' 'And if you get this on your own computer, you are part of the 1% in the world who has that opportunity.' 'If you woke up this morning with more health than illness ... you are more blessed than the many who will not even survive this day.' 'If you have never experienced the fear in battle, the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture, or the pangs of starvation ... you are ahead of 700 million people in the world.' 'If you can attend a church without the fear of harassment, arrest, torture or death you are envied by, and more blessed than, three billion people in theworld..' 'If your parents are still alive and still married.....you are very rare.' 'If you can hold your head up and smile, you are not the norm, you're unique to all those in doubt and despair.'

Ok, what now? How can I start?
If you can read this message, you just received a double blessing in that someone was thinking of you as very special and you are more blessed than over two billion people in the world who cannot read at all. Have a good day, count your blessings, and if you care to, pass this along to remind everyone else how blessed we all are.

ATTN: Acknowledge Dept.
'Thank you Lord, for giving me the ability to share this message and for giving me so many wonderful people with whom to share it.'

If you have read this far, and are thankful for all that you have been blessed with, how can you not send it on????

I thank God for everything, especially all my family and friends!!

Blessings with love...

Something interesting...

2008-07-30T16:42:00.001+08:00

Chanced upon someone's quotes... I feel it's quite true... So do take some time to read through and ponder...

10 things I have learned from elderly parents and friends:
(1) Do it now. You won't always be able to do things you now take for granted.
(2) Develop a wide range of interests, some active and some sedentary, so you will always have something to look forward to.
(3) Make friends with younger people.
(4) Slow down and notice beautiful little things around you.
(5) Travel light -- throw and give things away. No one is going to build a museum in your honor.
(6) Think about what you can do, not what you can't.
(7) Don't worry about impressing people. They are not paying as much attention to you as you think.
(8) Be curious. The more you learn, the more questions you will have.
(9) Take care of your health. It will make a big difference in your quality of life. (10) Be positive.

Yeah!!!

2nd day at ERS

2008-07-29T11:59:00.003+08:00

Just started my secondment in ERS... Havent been assigned on any jobs, think my experience in audit not very relevant... So been reading and reading abt the way how to do internal audit and stuff... Feel like in training whole day, but more of self-training... Self reading rather...

Generally much quieter during work but during lunch time it's pretty noisy... They go early lunch, but come back early as well. Working hours also seem more balanced... But they start late, end a bit later also la... Yep yep...

But one thing I dun really like is that the bosses will walk ard n look at ur laptop to see wat u're doing... showing their disapproval if u're not doing stuff relating to work... I mean in audit, it's understandable to take a break... I dunno... I think it's good n bad... Make sure you're focussed... Yep... So going back to read... it's endless... Knowledge is endless...

Starting the work day early...

2008-07-24T11:52:00.002+08:00

Today dear had an interview in the east at 830... So he woke at 530 n planned to leave home at 6... So I thought of accompanying him... Halfway... Go office early la... So I reached ard 7am... The whole office was dark... Now off-peak le... So no one will come so early one... Yep, so checked emails... Ken's n mine, printed some stuff n ate my breakfast then got ready for work... But it was only 8... So now it's almost 12... And I feel so bored le... Like I've worked for a long long time...

Meeting dear for lunch... Late lunch... So sleepy and bored... Why today pass so slow??? Haiz... Wanna go watch movie later... Oh ya, shld call sinamex... Ok ok gt something to do le... Yeah... Looking forward to the new stuff next week... I needa get used to waking early, reach early... Can do much more... Yeah...

Life without internet

2008-07-24T00:45:00.003+08:00

Ken's modem is down... So it explains why I always am checking his emails n printing doc for him n all stuff... Life without internet is tough... I wonder how I did it in the past... Hahahaha... Wonder how Ken does it... Hahaha... Oh ya, he got PSP now... Fighting the germans... Yep, that's keeping him busy... But at least he doesnt use that as an excuse not to go out with me... Hee....

Managed to catch a show with him on Mon!!! Hahaha... Just watched the show that fitted our timing... Didnt realised that it was a XXX show... Was shocked by the things we saw in the movie... It was a real-life story that happened in the past... Nice plot... But the scenes were a little disturbing... Hahaha... We came out of the show then we checked the tixs n we understood why... Hahaha... I seem to start talking in parables... Hmmm... Nvm... I wanna watch red cliff... But when??? Haiz...

Lesson learnt the hard way...

2008-07-24T00:28:00.002+08:00

Haiz.... Ok... I was being too nice... According to Ken... Did something wrong... Something done out of good intention but it went one big round and came back n shot myself... Was quite upset over the whole incident... But it's settled... Learnt my lesson... The media which you choose to communicate information is very very impt... Shant talk abt it any more... It's history... But I really learnt my lesson... And it doesnt pay to be nice to the ppl ard you... Hmmmm...

Hurt some ppl or rather saboed some ppl along the way... Felt really bad... Just wanna apologise to them... Made them so busy to settle this problem... Dun think they'll ever read this... But just to make myself feel better...

I'm really sorry for adding more work to you... I really appreciate you for looking out for me... And really touched the way you talked to me... Although I did something wrong... But you nvr scolded me... You saw the reason why I did it... You were so understanding and encouraged me even though you had to explain to higher mgmt... I really thank you from the bottom of my heart for the things which you have done for me... Sorry for all the trouble and heart pain i caused you... I promise you that i will treasure my time there and do my best...

I know it's case closed and time to move on... And I cant others abt what exactlly happened... But I thank God for ppl who stood by me during the short period of time of trial... Think only 2 other ppl know abt this thing other than the ppl involved... One is my colleague sitting next to me... Another is my dear...

I know that nice ppl still exist, but you're a rare species... And I met 2... Great ppl... I couldnt eat nor sleep well last nite... And each email I received, my heart pounded so quickly... I was really worried... I prayed myself to sleep last nite... Deep inside I knew that God is in control... And God has brought it to past, it will not be taken away from me... But the circumstances just gave me no peace and I was really really worried... Nvr felt that for a long long time le... But after this... Now at hindsight, i should have just trusted God more... Have more faith... Well, easy to say that now... Hahaha... Anyway, it's really a lesson learnt... The hard way, but things worked out fine now...

Hahahaha... I think very difficult to understand this post... But it's ok... It's for me to remember the stupid mistake that I committed... And I'll nvr do that ever again... I've learnt... Really... Learnt... Sorry for the trouble to the 2 nicest ppl ard...

Hmmmm....

2008-07-21T13:02:00.002+08:00

I think this picture is very suggestive... Not against anyone of u in this pic, but it's just looks wrong la... Hahaha...

But look at this... Just another gender, but same flowers... It doesnt look weird...

Maybe that's why there are more lesbians than gays? Or at least it appears to me so... Hahaha... Just some thoughts...

In training

2008-07-21T09:13:00.002+08:00

Zzzzzzzzzzzzz..... So sleepy... But muz focus... Got test after each module...2 attempts, 80% min then considered pass... So diff from PY... Guess they realised that we're not listening during class... Hahhaha... But took like 3years to realise it!!! Hahaha... Yep, that's how fast things in corporate world moves... Especially in big org... Got all the approval levels before something can change and be implemented... Hmmmm.... Ok... FOCUS!!!

Being a leader

2008-07-16T23:12:00.003+08:00

Just came back from BS... Felt so inspired... Although the lesson was a little long, but I felt there was impartation... Great... Kim Hock shared about prophets... Towards the end, he shared abt "A prophet affects people's destinies" MOSES... He couldnt get into the promised land cos he struck a stone instead of just speaking to it... It's seems God is so cruel... Dun let Moses in cos of such a small thing?! It's so so so unfair? He led the stubborn ppl for so many years!!! How can God do such a thing to him? But Kim Hock told us that Moses is a leader, the people look up to him. Everything that he does matter... As such, he has to watch the words he says, the way he conducts himself, the thoughts that goes thru his mind, etc... To be a leader means you have lesser room for mistake... Cos ppl's destinies are affected by you... Leadership comes with great responsibility...

Then he shared abt Elisha following after Elijah... He kept his eyes fixed on the man of God... And thus received a double portion of anointing... And the scary thing is... After being in church for some time... Ppl will tend to become comfortable, no longer hungry or pursuing God... This is scary...

I pray that I will always covet for God's presence, his power, anointing, hand to be with me... In everything that I do... I wanna be near Him... After the BS, we prayed n prayed for breakthru to come to everyone of us... I made a decision... I wanna be more strict with myself... My enemy is myself... Every year I want to be better than I was last year... Always pushing myself to go the extra mile, to do greater things than I did last year...

Looking back... It's already 7.5 months into the year... I thank God for sustaining me through this year... Indeed it was not easy being a senior... I'm glad I stayed... This year, I truly have enlarged... In work, ministry, cg... Every aspect... I shld be getting my driving licence soon... In a few weeks' time... Then my CPA by the end of the year... Went for 2 holidays this year!!! Though short ones, but it was fun... Drew much closer to Ken... Oh ya, engaged this year... In the next few months, i will be doing internal audit... Something new... And after that, maybe take a half month break, go for Asia Conference... Then start my new job... Probably in Dec... Maybe earlier... Or later... Depends on job demand ba... I pray that I can be an asset to the new company I join... N I can get a good job... God will lead... God will provide... God is my God... My Abba Father... He knows what's best for me... He's the One... Guiding me, walking with me... I thank Him each day for helping me... :) Hugs...

Graduation Dinner Celebration???

2008-07-15T01:20:00.016+08:00

To celebrate his graduation...

We went to fish n co to makan dinner just now... Took some photos... Cos I brought my camera out... Hee... Look at Ken when he's alone with me... Hahhaa... I think pictures speak louder than words...

Ken n the Sharkie Freeze... Passionfruit...

Ken's whole line fish...

Ermz...

Before eating, you must kiss the fish...

Then lick it...

Then admire it before you can start eating...

Yummy!!!

We literally finished the sauces... The buttery yellow one on the fish... A bowl of garlic, a bowl of chilli, a bowl of sambal, some tar tar sauce... I thot she served too much sauces, then at the end of the dinner, it was just nice... We ate so much garlic... No wonder I still can taste it in my mouth now... Hmmmmm.... Of course, I was having fun just now also... Hee...
Me biting the straw??? Too hungry...

When the food just arrived...

Ken finishing the Sharkie...

A close-up!!!

Yep, so Ken settled the Sharkie n we headed over to sim lim square for our quest... Haiz... But nice time spent together... :)

Yeah!!! Graduated!!!

2008-07-15T00:56:00.011+08:00

Yeah... Ken graudated le... We've been to Batam n back... Hmmmmm... No Batam photos, cos all with Ken? So only got some grad day photos...
Part of the graudands in that ceremony... Can you spot Ken???

I circled him out in red... He reading the book, searching for his friends' names...

More photos...

Nice picture of the CG...

With his bro n sis-on-law...

Ken n his mom... I think this photo very nice... Hee... I wonder who the photographer is... Hahaha...

Mr & Mrs Lee...

Many more too, but having some prob uploading... I'll try post them on facebook... check it out there... :)

Girl girl is back...

2008-07-05T13:43:00.002+08:00

Heh... Girl girl... My sec 4 closest pal is back from US... I think havent seen her in a year!!! Hmmm, or more than that... So much has changed... Hahaha... Hmmmm... At least my status??? Hahaha... Hmmmmm... Going to catch up with her coming Wed... And hear her tell stories abt her bfsssssssss.... Hahahaha... Think it's going to be fun... Yeah...

Everyone is so busy... Everytime she comes back, she'll try to meet up with as many ppl as possible... Then fly back for a few months or years... Then come back n meet up again... Catch up n everything... Time really flies... It's been almost 9 years since we grad from sec sch... Then moved on to diff jcs... Then she flew off to pursue her degree in Madison... Then she going to study her masters soon... Or started le??? Oppps... Hahhaa...

For me, after JC, went to uni and grad le, then worked... FOR 3 years le!!! Time really flies... Then hopefully we'll all get married soon... I wonder who's already married amongst us... Maybe someone, or more, then low profile, nvr invite us... Hahahha... But well, to all the jackals out there... Hope that everyone of u is fine and doing well... Enjoying life... We should really meet up soon... But... Haiz... No one go plan... So horrible... Maybe girl girl... Hahahaha...

Perm photo...

2008-06-30T10:00:00.006+08:00

Off-peak party with Denise...

Taken in office today...

Perm

2008-06-29T00:17:00.002+08:00

Oh ya... i permed my hair.... cant show u the effects, cos havent gotten the photos which I took... Now hair in mess... dun wanna take photo... show u the one I at the salon... Was there for like 3 hours... I think I fell asleep too... Wahahaha....

Yep yep... This is not a sudden move... Been wanting to get a perm for the longest time le... But But but.... Hair not long enough... Finally!!! Hahaha...

A change... Finally...

2008-06-29T00:01:00.002+08:00

Yeah... I'm going to go on a secondment soon... at the end of jul... going to join the internal audit dept for some time... Learn some things from there... N see the job scope... And whether to pursue a career in there next time... Yep... Havent got the official emails on the dates, but should be coming soon... Very happy... Cos not a lot of ppl got it... So really thank God for it...

But need to wrap up lots n lots of jobs b4 that... God, you got to help me stay focussed... And lead me to the next step of my life... And pray that Ken can find a job soon... One that he likes... One that he'll enjoy... Not too boring, but not too stressful too... Yep yep... Praying for him... You too, muz go pray for him!!! Heh... Still reading?! Go pray!!!

50% through....

2008-06-18T23:59:00.002+08:00

Completed 3 days of the 5 day course... So much info in 1 week... Although it's a recap, but it has been 3 years since I graduated... And the laws, rules and regulations have all changed in the past 3 years! And the lecturer goes through one sem of notes in 1 day... With 2 breaks in the middle and a lunch break. School is 9 to 5... That means in 5 hours to finish one module that is covered in school in 1 sem ==> 12 weeks of lect n tut!!! Faints...

And there will be a test at the end of friday... Thank God it's MCQs, true/false n short answers kind of questions.... Been so tired... waking up early is somthing which I certainly dislike to do... And the notes to read... Yawns... On Mon I took the file, 1 ring file. I was like ok, got to finish reading all these by Fri?! Hmmmmm, we'll see how it goes... Then as each day goes by... I realised those were just the pre-course notes? The lecture notes were given out on that day of lect itself... N it's abt the same thickness... Faints... Yep... So tml after the course, I'm going to come home guai guai to study for the test... Paid 535 for this course. I dun wanna repeat man... How come everything so ex!?!?!

And my group of ppl... God... Give me creativity... New ideas how to bring them from glory to glory... How to make them have the desire to grow, to want to be spiritual??? I look at them, I really need God's love n grace n strength n longsuffering n gentleness n patience... ... I need to pray more, I need to spend more time in His presence, I need to manage my time well to complete my revision...

Parents coming back on Fri nite... I need to settle my own laundry b4 that so that they can wash their clothes when they come back... Wah!!! I need to sleep now... Hahhaa... Update soon....

What have I been up to?

2008-06-15T00:19:00.002+08:00

Hmmm... My last post was on 1st june... 2 weeks ago.... Well... I was rushing work so that i could go for my bkk trip... So I went and am back... Not going to blog abt the trip... cos the others have blogged abt it so you can read from their blog... Yep...

On the plane there, the other 3 were sleeping n I was thinking to myself... Why is thailand like that? Why is it a land known for its prostution? How come the govt doesnt think of changing this image? How come the ppl are so confused? Male by birth, but cant decide whether to live a life that is man by choice? I was asking God all these questions... And I told myself that i am going to walk in thailand... And every step I walk is like confessing that this land belongs to the Lord. Every step I take, means that God is having control over the place, the building, the area... So that was my motivation in walking the malls n beaches n eveywhere in Bangkok... On the way back, i was praying for that country too... I make a decision that every country I go to, I am going to pray for them, I am going to confess that God is the one in control over that place, God reigns in that place... Yep... So I wanna travel more, more!!! Hahaha...

Through this trip, I got to spend quality time with Ken... And got to know Rach n Meng better... And I was telling Ken that I can live life with him... Hahaha... Sounds so funny here... But I was thinking life with Ken will quite interesting... Hmmm...

Then after the trip, I came back n nua-ed a day... then went back to work... Then next week will be a training week... going for my ICPAS course... Then after that going to take my driving retest the following mon on 23rd june... Hmmmm, the same day that income tax is due, but I've paid le... Yep... Then it's back to work... From 24th June onwards, it'll be work all the way, didnt apply any more leaves, hope that I can be serious in working for the next few months...

Oh ya, my parents n my siblings left for Taiwan on the day I went back to work... So am alone at home... So lonely n bored that i stayed up to do household chores til 3am... Hahaha... Crazy le... Yep... So am going to sleep soon... One person clothes dun need to wash everyday... So more free... Wonder what life is going to be like in my new house... I am dreaming le... Hahhaa....

13th Jul 2008...

2008-06-01T02:12:00.002+08:00

This marks a special day in Ken's life... It's his convocation... It's a Sunday... Think it's at 3pm... Yeah... It's a ceremony that marks the end of his NUS life... Even as he prepares for the working world... It's amazing to see how God has brought him through these past 4 years in NUS. Ken has been scoring better and better with each sem. He started his 1st sem with a CAP of less than 3 and ended with 4.6!!! Amazing... But his average gave him a 2nd lower honours, which I think is not bad le, considering his 1st sem cap was <3... Yep... Dear, so proud of u...

To Ken, this day is just another day, nothing significant cos he has lots of other things he's thinking about... Finding employment is the most impt thing on his mind now... Yep, I remember that time when I was trying to find a job, I also grew quite sian... When everyone else was getting employment b4 they graduated... I got mine only in mid Aug... Which was very late... But i eventually managed to get into one of the big 4 of my industry... And I've been here for 2 year plus... It's amazing... Along the way there were many obstacles, but God managed to see me through it all... So dear dear, dun lose hope... You can get the job u so badly wanted one... We'll continue to pray together, fast together n believe together...

The other thing on our minds is the flat that we applied for... Really hope that we will get it... Then can get married in abt 3-4 years time... Yep yep...

Been thinking through our relationships a lot recently... Thinking back of all the things, places, ppl we know and stuff lately... Few have gotten married for those of our age... Many ppl have been congratulating us... Yep... Thanks for all your well wishes... You can start saving a dollar a day le... Hahaha... Ken was just chatting with his NUS fren over dinner... She gt to know abt the proposal from Junhao... Our sec 2 classmate... Hmmmm... Dunno how he knew, but yep... And she asked how we managed to sustain so long... And the answer is religion... We have the same belief, trust the same Person, and we understand each other's dreams n visions...

A man leads... So he's the leader in our relationship... A man guards... He guards his territory, he doesnt allow other guys to come near me... Hahhaa... A man protects... He ensures that I'm safe... A man governs... He sets the rules n regulations... Hmmmm, sounds legalistic... Hahaha... And he gives me security, he is faithful, God-fearing, humourous too!!! And i'm a very easy-going person... Hahaha... I think everyone will agree... Yeah... SO I'll be a good supporter, a follower... Hahhaa...

THat day Ken was just saying we got to list down all the couples who got married after we were together, like we were invited and/or attended / attending their wedding... A lot... I'll try listing some... Not in order, cos I cant remember the order also... Hmmmm.... Sorry if I spelt ur name wrongly... But it sounds like that to me... :p
1. Khen Theen & Wanyi
2. Brian & Vivian
3. Bruce & Shaun
4. Vic Tan & Shuxian
5. Vic Lim & Yvonne
6. Kel & Er
7. Lester & Joy
8. Lennie & husband
9. Annie & Kirk
10. Chia Yee & husband
11. Adeline Chong & husband
12. Justin & Steph Seah
13. Keng Hoe & Lixia
14. Ziwei & Jelaine
15. Wilson & Jessie
16. Bronson & Leah
17. Gerald & Laiyin
18. Joseph & Linying
19. Isaiah & Klessis
20. Lilian & Adrian
21. Matthias & wife
22. Michelle Lee & George
23. Wendy & Thomas
24. Gary & Meiling
25. Edwin Low & Meiling
26. Edwin Chen & Evelyn

Cant recall others le.. Sorry if I missed out ur name... Yep... There are at least 26 who have gotten together and married before us... Well... Ours coming... A few more years... Hahaha... ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.... 3+ le... GTG sleep... My beauty sleep...

Advice given --> Take it...

2008-06-01T01:47:00.002+08:00

When you ask for advice from ppl... Be prepared to take whatever they say cos the fact that you ask them for advice means that you feel that the advice they'll be giving is smthg of value, something practical... Then take their advice... Why do you still need to ask so many other ppl for advice as well? Means that you dun think my advice is good rite? Haiz... Why cant u just trust ur leaders?! Haiz...

Ouch!!!

2008-05-29T08:52:00.002+08:00

I fell down last nite... Been quite long since I fell down n it was quite bad... I missed my step n landed at the bottom of the steps on my left knee... A big bump there now... And blue black... Haiz...

But thank God I was wearing pants... It did protect my knee a little...
Thank God I managed to land on the flat ground cos I miss the 3rd or 4th step of that flight of steps... (> 10 I think)...
Thank God I wasnt bleeding or what, just blue black... Hahaha...

I got to be more careful... Walk slower... Muz bao chi xing xiang... Hahaha...

Ken was just saying muz really be careful... Cos now older le... Body cannot take falls that well... N next time if I'm pregnant... OH NO!!! Hahahaha... But I'm ok le... Dun touch my knee, it stills hurts... Oh ya, cant kneel now... :(

What's next?

2008-05-26T23:41:00.002+08:00

Hmmmmm... It doesnt feel much different now that I'm engaged... Hahaha... Next the more practical things to get started... Next up will be applying flat... 4 room one... Then maybe a change in career... Hahaha... A more enjoyable, more relaxed and balanced one... I pray i can find one... Hee.... Update soon, tired... Just reached home not long... ZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........

Proposal 20052008...

2008-05-21T22:56:00.005+08:00

Ok, my last post was supposed to be unknown to those who do not know... But seeing that Ken has already disclosed it... I shall not hide it anymore...

After 10 years, 3 months n 10 days of courtship... Ken proposed to me yesterday... Yep, this was the SMS which I sent to Shaun when she asked abt it... Think it summarises everything that happened... Yep, for a more interesting version, check out Ken's blog... He's a storyteller... Hahaha...

"Ha.. He apparently planned it long ago.. Asked me take leave n go in wif him. I thought norm practice, so went with him. Then asked me go into the hangar to help him take photos. Then aft checkin the plane everything, he told me he got licence le, n going to take me up. So I went up with him lo. Didn't suspect anything cos everythin happened too fast. So went up n flew to an island. On way there gt a little lost, then the plane's transponder nt workin. Asked me to help him take a gps system fr his bag. I jus dug it out fr his bag cos he was really lost. But when I saw celestial on the box, I realised.. Yep, so he asked me open. Then he popped the qn lo. Then I told him ya. Ha.. Then he flew back n landed. Didn't kneel at all la. He said muz come back spore then wear the ring, cos scared nt safe. So he put it on for me over dinner table at ps foodcourt lo.. Then he went leader's meetin n I went home.. Yep."

So yeah, the photos n videos taken that day are with Ken... I only took some photos of the ring just now... Hee...

The ring in its box...

Close-up of the ring...

MY RING on my finger...

Yep... I think pictures speak louder than words, so yep... I'm engaged... Hahaha... It feels so weird to say that... Well, wedding not so soon, dear muz find a job and we muz find a flat 1st... So if u wanna come for our wedding, so keep in touch n send me your contacts!!! Hahaha... We can start compiling our guest list... Relatives, RV, SA, Ex CG ppl, current CG ppl, future CG ppl, CHCN ppl, CHCS ppl, pri sch frens??? Wa!!! Seems daunting... Hahaha...

Mr Teo did it again...

2008-05-20T22:14:00.002+08:00

Surprise! Hahaha... He stunned me again... Been spending lots of time with him these couple of days cos on 4 days long holiday... Refused to work... Hahaha.... After I offed my laptop on Fri nite, I have yet to touch it. I know that there are lots of work waiting for me tml. But who cares, let's enjoy life... Need a balance man... 4 mths of peak period has been long and suffocating... Let's take things at a slower pace now... Hahaha...

So we went to Msia today... Ken was going to fly, I thought it was for practice, then for his test soon... Who knows that he has already gotten his licence in Feb!!! Haiyo... Been kept in the dark for more than 2 months+... So he took me up for a ride... Hahaha... His 1st passenger... It was real interesting... Not that scary la, but the sudden drop in altitude was like the jurong east that irritating hump.

Sidetrack: One way to combat that hump is to breathe out when the vehicle is moving down. It helps to reduce that heart throbbing feeling...

So when Ken descended or met with slight turbulence, that was the feeling, and it was unexpected, and I couldnt be breathing out all the time... So it was quite scary... But other than that, it was quite fun la... Hee... My dear is a pilot!!! Hahaha... He flew me up n alone up there!!! Yep... So was an experience la...

Then he stunned me up there with a 'GPS system'... Nice starry one some more... Hahaha... Then I landed with another surprise... 2 supporters from Spore were there too... Hahaha... Thanks for coming down!!! Hee...

Yep, will elaborate more on wat happened when the time is ripe... Heh...

Yep after which, we went city square to catch a movie... What happened in Las Vegas... Interesting... Hahaha... N ate n ate n ate... Think the 2 sporean supporters were shocked at the amount of things we ate today... Hahaha... But didnt shop la, cos we're going bkk soon!!! Heh...

For those who helped plan today, thanks for all your help... I really didnt expect it and am thoroughly surprised... Yep...

On the way back, i was just thinking abt all the things which had happened... Amazing... In the past 10 years, it has been eventful courtship... God has brought the 2 of us together and been in the centre for the past 8 years... He is the one sustaining our relationship and gave me revelations that Ken is the one for me... Telling me to hold onto this r/s no matter what happens...

Ken has been really sweet and a great support in the things which I need to do. Even though he does not really understand how I feel each day as I go to work, but he always encourages me to press on. He always cheers me up when i am down. He is always there for me when I need someone to talk to. He's always so good looking, even when he just wakes up. He was with me through my happiest moments and saddest moments. He is like a part of me. I've grown to be so dependent on him that I cant live without him. He is the strength behind me. He protects me. When i feel afraid or tired, I know I can always find rest in his embrace... Just an amazing man, one who is God fearing and faithful. In the whole 10 years + that we're together, he has nvr been unfaithful. I know his love for me is true. And i live each day thanking God for him. Dear, you're the best man one can ever ask for... I love you... :) Muacks, hugs... Hee...

Mothers...

2008-05-18T22:56:00.002+08:00

Mother's Day was last week... There were many thoughts I had about that special day, but havent ahd time to blog... Now... I shall record them down... I was serving on the sat svc for that weekend cos sp had a friend... Realised that the whole place was so packed that ppl were sitting on the steps...

1) Mothers gel the family together...
When they come for svc, the whole family comes together. That's why there was an overwhelming crowd that day. Compared to other big days, where we invite our friends to come, usually the friend will come alone. But on mother's day, when mothers are invited, the whole family comes, or should I say the whole clan comes...

Similarly, in Ken's family... We usually meet for dinner with Kel n Er on Sun nite. However, everytime his mom goes overseas, we will all settle dinner on our own... So this is another example of mothers geling the family together.

2) Mothers' mood determine the mood of the family
Xing was sharing with me that in his family, when his mom is in good mood, everything in the house will run smoothly. And everyone will be in good mood too, the converse is also true. This set me thinking. In my family, when my mom is worried abt certain things, she will begin to talk abt it to everyone else in the family and set us worrying as well. When she's happy, the same thing happens. So basically, mothers have the strongest influence in the 'culture' of a family. Cos they set the envt n mood of the family.

3) Mothers understand what you need and want without being told
There exists a special bond between mother and child. There is no need for explicit communication; mothers know and understand what her child is going through and her maternal instincts will just come to play and she will provide the right solution to the problem. It might be the right kind of medication to treat certain symptoms. A phone call at the right moment. A hug at the right time of the day. Anything. Mothers know best...

Last Mother's Day sat, I had a vision sharing with my connect group cos I come to realised that we're going no where... So we're going to touch one life at a time and in our CG, it's a place where lives will nvr be the same again. I shared with them the urgency in reaching out, impacting our mktplace... So that day after svc, I reached home n felt so challenged. I took out the pink invitation card n wrote an appreciation note to my mom... And also gave the pink heart shaped cookie which Rach gave me aft svc to my mom...

I think she was touched... But I really feel that mothers are the bestest ppl ard. She is someone so great, someone whom God has placed in every family to provide and care for the family. To ensure that everything runs smoothly in a family. To teach the children to grow up with the right attitudes... We always say "ni ma ma mei you jiao ni..." So mothers have been stereotyped to be the 'teachers' of their children over the history of mankind... So I wanna salute all mothers... You're the best!!! :)

My Upcoming Bkk Trip...

2008-05-08T22:30:00.002+08:00

Reasons why I wanna go Bkk...

1) Nvr been to thailand b4...
2) It's sinking!!!
3) Near but not that near...
4) Shopping Paradise???

Hahaha... Wanted to write a little update on the trip... I'll be leaving on 4th nite and back on 11th nite... 7days la... A week to BKK is a little long, but I think with the ppl I going with, it'll be alright... Rach agreed to entertain us if we're going to be bored... Heh...

Yep, so on 4th after we touched down at BKK, we'll take a cab to Pattaya... I thinking how we're going to squeeze all our luggages into the cab la??? But we'll work something out la... Yep, so Pattaya... We'll be staying in this hotel called Jomtien Thani... It's quite a nice hotel... We decided to stay on Jomtien Beach cos it's cleaner... Away from the red light district... Hahaha... Yep, wanna go go-kart there... Then have checked out some tour agents' brochures... They all go to this island called Coral Island... So maybe we can go check it out also... Yep... Then got the seafood there which Ken said it's great... So eating n playing...

We'll head over to BKK on 6th, friday after breakfast at Jomtien Thani... Read reviews that the breakfast range is great. So am going to make sure I eat lots!!! Hahha... Make my money worth man...

Yep in BKK, we'll stay in Grand Watergate hotel... It's abt 200m off the main road, diagonal to Asia hotel, same plot of land as Baiyoke hotels... Not a very high end hotel, but we're only paying S$17.50 pax per nite, so cant complain much... But hopefully it's ok... So yep...

Havent planned the itinery... I think can leave to the ppl who finished exams to plan rite? Cos they more free.... I gt so many jobs on hand now that i have no mood to go do research... Cos it makes me more wanting to leave straight away... Hahaha... Yep, so those more eng ppl go plan kk? Hahhaa...

Congrats to Meng!!! You made it thru...

Congrats to Ken!!! You'll make it thru too...

Kelvin n Juner left for Switzerland today... Think they'll have a great time together too... THink their 1st trip after Denzel came along... Hee... Ken was saying that we needa travel more when we're younger... I hope I can go... I wanna go too... God will provide... Hee...

The bug got me...

2008-05-06T11:08:00.001+08:00

Got gastric flu today... Mild one... Thank God... So yep, cant take all those exciting, delicious food... Haiz...

Woke up this morning before my alarm clock rang... With pains like gastric pain... Wanted to go get MC, but thot needed to bring my staff down to client's... Reached office n realised I sotong... The job supposed to start next week la? Faints... So went to the doc who gave me a MC n 2 medicines...

But need to finish up the loads n loads of work not completed yet... Haiz... So stressed, no wonder body cant take it...

A pillar

2008-05-03T00:17:00.002+08:00

I finished Pst Ulf's 'Our Holy Calling' finally... There's one part which really touched me... He mentioned something about being a pillar in the church... Pillars have a different calling. They exist and are there without people around realising. But they are vital to support the church. Without them, the church wont exist. It's true physically, it's also true spiritually... And also on a smaller scale at the cell group level...

A cg needs to have pillars who will support the functioning of a cg. The pillars are there day n nite, rain or shine, without any words of complain... Just hoping for more pillarts to be built so that the burden is lighter... And when there are more pillars, the weight which can be supported also increases... And one day, when the number of pillars increase n increase til the pillars no longer feel the burden, then it's time to multiply. Conquer new grounds...

Just came back from CG. Really touched by the presence of God... Felt the hunger renewed... Been feeling so drained recently cos of work... So thank God for a great meeting just now... Hee... Going to read my bible le... Needa catch up tons man... Rach is going to kill me le... Hahaha...

Send your mighty wind
Renew this life within

Spirit of God fall down
Fall with your fire and power from high
Ignite in me again
Our hearts live in Your name
Spirit of God fall down
Pour as your rain revive us now
Restore our lives and quench these thirsty souls... ...

Great day ahead... Exciting times... Living from faith to faith... Faith robbers, get out of my life... I'm going to protect my spiritual walk... Feed my lambs, tend my sheep, feed my sheep... Not the goats!!! Hahaha... So the lambs n the sheeps will be full n taken care of... God touch me, use me, empower me, enlarge me, guide me, lead me, use me, move thru me... I give my life in exchange for all of you... I love you Lord...

Upset...

2008-04-29T13:24:00.003+08:00

I think I sabo-ed my mgr... A nice mgr... Feel so bad... Dropped him an email to apologise... But he's nice la, dun think he'll scold me or wat... Haiz...

Feel so over-loaded... So many jobs ongoing and like due altogether... Having bad headache also... Been so tired, just knock out once I reached home... No energy to do anything else or think of anything... Everyday I'm just counting down to the day i can have my freedom n joy back... think 4 more months... faints... Still so long... It'll come soon... Peak is like almost over... N I made it thru...

So 4 more months will be over in a jiffy too... I hope n pray that I wont be so sian everyday... HS help me to brighten up... Take things easy... Everything's alright... I've got Jesus with me... :)

Book Review - The good women of China

2008-04-27T17:54:00.002+08:00

Recently I just finished reading a book called the good women of China. The author was a journalist who used to work as a radio broadcaster in China. She asks the women to call in to share their stories and they can remain anonymous in order to protect themselves.

So there were many cases of rapes cos the ppl were deprived of normal sexual relationships with their wives due to the war. Women were abused and tortured, some even lost their minds. In the poorest tribes of China, where one has to travel long distances to get in, the women were traded as commodities. The food they ate were also miserable.

As I read each story, I really feel that I am so blessed where I am. A caring and loving family. A safe place. Having a good education. Having equal standing with men. Given the same opportunities. Not prejudiced against...

Any one wanna borrow the book, let me know k? You'll really feel that those men shld be killed and the women are so pitiful... Each chapter talks abt one story of a woman, and it's really easy to read. All biographies, the author interviews them and write their stories down... Yep... :)

Tough life...

2008-04-24T23:24:00.002+08:00

Been feeling quite horrible cos having to deal with a difficult mgr... just felt my tolerance level towards her is low low low... i had to keep telling myself, relax, just finish up the job, get the fs signed n move on... Yep so this is what i keeping me going for now...

Just ganna another job today... Heard the mgr very detailed... i pray that i can get into the gd books of this mgr, nvr do his job b4... prayerfully i can brak some records... heard from another colleague that he gave 1,000 review points for dunno 7 or 8 companies... it's like ermz... no wonder i always see ppl sitting down beside him to clear pts... But well... Thank God that these jobs are towards the end of the peak, at least now can breathe a bit better... As in like not so rush, but still muz faster finish up n wrap up...

i wanna wrap up all my jobs b4 i leave... think it's not very nice to leave things dangling there n just leave... so dun dun dun give me more jobs le, i scared i cant clear finish la... haiyo... but cant tell my boss that... haiz...

yep, heard a lot of ppl also planning to leave... think we'll see who will be the 1st n who will be the last... i think i'll be one of the last few now, cos my leave more or less gone... haiz...

But i going bangkok soon... Yep, looking forward to that day man... 2nd time i'll be on a plane... budget again but better than going m'sia by coach... heh... at least this time it's a little further... n with fun buddies... heh... yep yep... so u wanna get anything, let me know k? going in jun. think will be very hot but well...

oh ya, that day i went out with Ken, tues nite... dunno why no meeting... then we were at ps... then he forced me to go try out my ring size... faints man... so obvious... hahha cos b4 that i read bruce msg to him... have you found the ring? which he dismissed as bruce been bugging him abt when we getting married... but well, looking at his expressions, i know he was lying... hahaha... it's so funny la... but it's interesting to see how things turn eventually... as for now... it's just jiayou jiayou jiayou... then faster bkk come then my driving test... i wanna pass this time round man.. so frustrating n so ex la... yep... so i'm going to pass it!!! :)

Ceilings...

2008-04-17T20:19:00.002+08:00

We had a zone meeting with Jeremy last friday. Was really impacted by what he shared abt on ceilings we have set for ourselves, consciously or sub-consciously. So impacted that I called up Melinda on Tues nite and shared with her cos she missed it last fri...

This msg has been haunting me for the past week... I have been in my company for the past 2.5 years le... Have been taking it quite relaxedly... In the sense that I just do the minimal, such that wont get scolded by mgr or client. I know I can do better, but the resistance is very great and the motivation to break thru is not there... Cos in a few months time, I shld be out of here... So was really challenged by his msg that I just kept working and working for this week... Sleeping at 2+, 3 everyday and waking at 7 to go to work... So drained this week, but I know that I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me.

But even as I continue to expound on this word, there are 2 more expansions which I feel that this word can be applied...

1) DUN let other ppl's 'ceiling' hinder you from breaking through!!!
Why is your breakthru dependent on others? You need to remove all baggages, leeches which are clinging onto you so that you can run and soar... At the rate that God has spoken to you. By allowing someone else's problems to be your problem, you'll always be slower... THen you see ppl ard you exceeding you, winning the race in front of you and you will become lethargic and give up... So in the 1st place, dun let ppl leech on you...

2) Dun set ceilings over other ppl...
Similarly, we shldnt help others to limit what they can do in Christ... We shld always challenge the ppl ard us, this will stir us to keep going also... As we challenge ourselves to break through each glass ceilings, we need to encourage and pull the rest of the ppl ard us to do the same also... Then it'll be fun and a joy for the ppl to be striving ppl and this is how we all breakthru and grow together...

Yep... So these are the things which are constantly bugging me.. And I am in office now.. But am leaving soon... going dinner then home... I can do it!!! I can excel... I can complete all the things which are outstanding... I can... I want to... I muz... Yeah!!!

Back to prawning again...

2008-04-16T02:29:00.001+08:00

Yep yep... We'll be going prawning this coming sat morning at this place near Bishan Park... Hmmm... It's at the cross junction bet Marymount Road n Sin Ming Ave...

Been some time since I last went prawning le... KNow that it's going to be lots of fun... Wanna more friends come n play... But realised my friends quite limited... Upset... Hahaha... Hmmmm... I shld go think who to jio... Cheap some more... Cos we got a great deal... I think more ppl come more fun... U free? Sat morn... Call me kk? :)

Seam bursting

2008-04-15T21:46:00.002+08:00

I was in the office today when i turned my head to the left and saw some hairy flesh... Erm... Ok ok... The guy beside me? The right side of his pants were torn at the seam... The upper thigh part, then he was crossing his right leg at the ankle so while I was turning my head to the left, I saw it la... Then I quickly turned back n continued working... Not sure if he knows abt it... Oops...

This happened to me too... Hahhaa... Twice these few weeks le... Both times i discovered it myself... Just hoping that no one else saw it before me... Both were pants...

One was on the left inner thigh... Which I discovered during lunch... So I went back office and took a stapler and went to the toilet n stapled it back... Hahaha... Then I even went for driving lesson after that... Heh...

The other one was on another pair of pants, at the area below the zip... Found it at client's place... As the hole was not visible while walking, I left it... And I cabbed back home after work, so quite safe la...

So I think I going to check all the seams of my clothes b4 I wear... Especially for those clothes which have been more than a year old... Better be safe than sorry... Imagine I have a hole at my bum and I wont know it... So paiseh... Hahaha... And I think u shld go check ur clothes too...

I thot if this title cos of that chains are breaking song... Hahaha... Still cant get it out of my head... So here it's seams are breaking... Hahahaha... Lol!!!

"Ya"

2008-04-13T23:07:00.003+08:00

Hahaha... I think Ken is going to kill me again... But well, this is my blog... Not his... Hahahaha...

Yep an update (of what happened on 10th Apr 08)... This is to go down memory lane... I went for my driving test on that day la... So in the morn, Ken woke me up and actually accompanied to bt gombak to meet my instructor n then he went home n do his thesis n prepare for school. So yep, practice was at 8am... Faints... Yep, so did til 10am then rest a while and went to take test at 11am. Yep, took with like 16 other ppl, but dunno how many ppl passed la, cos I didnt go watch the video lo...

What happened was I striked kerb la, and almost mounted kerb... Hahaha... Then the examiner say I stop line didnt stop. Haiz... I did... But I think I got to make that kind of stop, where he can feel it and it's uncomfortable then he considers it stop. Ya, I'll do that next time. Then I didnt check blind spots while turning, changing lane... Hmmmmm... True, I saw him look at me, but too late to check then... Hahaha... Ya, so yep, I failed but I feel that i'm not ready to drive too. Next time round ba... Yep, maybe I can rent car again when I pass, go celebrate... Hee... We'll see when it comes...

Yep, then I went home n washed up, changed n then went out to meet Ken at IMM. We went to rent a car, rather pick up a car which we 'booked'. The rental person rented out the car I ordered, an altis cos I was late n didnt call... But we got a cheaper car instead which was available for 2 days. Yep, a Hyundai Getz. It was small for a grp, but it met our needs of driving ard la, so we're ok with it.

So after we got the car, we drove to bt timah for our last massage session... Then tried the pizza beside the massage place. Then we went home to change my shoe cos the blister was so bad that I couldnt walk. Yep... So after that we went Vivo... Went to buy Ken's hp... He got the all black 6500 slide phone...

And we went to Bistro one zero three for dinner, it's at pasir panjang road, beside manhill restaurant. We over-ordered... Hahaha... Had the escargo, salad, one sphag, one main - the curried chicken thingy n brownie+ice-cream for dessert. Hahah... The curry chicken not that nice, dun try. But the others are good... Spent 60+, so think can go back. Service was good, just a little short handed though... Hahah...

After which we went to Keppel Island, Prive there... Haiz... Stupid security guard la... Spoil my plan... Hahaha... Yep, I brought Ken there n some of my frens were there preparing le...

I forgot to bring blindfold out then Rachel passed it to me at the toilet... Then I brought him over to the place where Kgoon n Meng were waiting... Along the way, Xing was hiding beside the rubbish chute to direct me... Hahaha... THat was so funny... Hahaha... YEp, so I got the heart shaped balloons n the 'flower' from meng n gave it to Ken n asked him to marry me... Hahaha... It was a special day for us... Cos 10 years ago... I also went out with him on this day and gave him my 1st kiss... Hahaha... On the cheek... Yep, it happened quite fast then... We were together for like only 2 months? Then that cheeky boy... Asked him wat he wanna for his bday... Then he said a bday kiss... Faints man... Hahaha... Ya la, so granted his wish lo, pecked him on his left cheek at my void deck... Hahaha... We both remember that memorable day man... Yep... So 10 years later, at Keppel Island, I decided to do something crazy lo... So yep, I proposed to him lo... THen he said "ya". Hee... Well, I'm still waiting for my proposal... But I dun think it'll come soon la, wait for him to grad n secure a job 1st la.

Ken always said that he was the one chasing me when we 1st started out... So proposal time is my turn... So I've done it... But... it is just part of the things which muz be cleared b4 we get married la... There's still another proposal, then application of a flat then marriage will come... So wait... Dun be so anxious la... I'm not even pushing for it, why u all so gan chiong? Cannot wait one??? Hai yo... Hahaha...

Yep yep... So thanks to Xing, meng, Kgoon n Rach who took time off to go down that day depsite ur hectic schedule... And also thanks to Ruix, Denn, Tam n Yan who helped with the planning and the brainstorming stage... Hehe... I can now announce Proj HK 'cheng gong'!!! Hahahha...

Yep, so after that, the 4 of them packed into the small Getz n we went to this place off Cantonment Road there called 'Le Bar'... Went to just chat n played some card games... As usual, xing was always the slow one... But no forfeit la... See we treat u so nice... Hahaha... Yep, so we celebrated Ken's bday there at midnight with a food platter... Yeah... After which we headed home... That was 1+ le... Long day but a great day...

On fri, we went to NUS to 'find' Ken's prof then went to Aljunied to pick up my provisional membership cert from CPA house then went to Kelvin's sch to pick up the plug-in guit. It couldnt fit into the boot!!! Hahaha... Had to put it in the back seat... Then went Ken's place to practise n do some work then had to travel down le... We went riverwalk... We managed to beat the ERP by abt 5 sec. Hahaa... Ken slowed down to abt 30km/h on the highway so that we wont pass the gantry at merchant road b4 7pm... We practically saw the light went out seconds b4 we passed thru... Heh... Yep, so we had zone meeting n celebrated Ken's bday aft that. Gave him cake, present, card... Then we packed into the car when went his bro's to return the guit. Then went home, dropped Xing n rach on the way... So fri was a short day, cos we woke up late... Heh...

On sat, we went to red star at chin swee road there for dim sum with his mom. Then sent his mom back cos it was raining and then returned the car... Then adventure with that car ended then... Yep, so after which, I went for BS n Ken went home to change. After BS, svc, then aft svc, BS... Then went Best for dinner then went Ken's place to get my laptop... And watched TV til 1am... Hahaha.. Then went home, was watchin wo cai wo cai with him... Quite funny la, the comments...

On Sun... That's this morn... Went to Swensens for brunch, was their breakfast actually.. Yep, 9 ppl turned up... To celebrate the bday of 6 of them... Faints... But I thot it was good fellowship, the ppl really gt to know one another... Yeah... So hopefully can have more ppl coming the next time... then went to serve, then came home n did some admin... Then after which went to Kelvin's place by cab to play with Denzel for a while... Then went for buffet at Miramar Hotel... To celebrate Ken's dad, mom n his bday... THen came back after that n watch death note 2... Heh... Then checked email n blogged... So I've updated what happened in the past few days...

Next week will be quite a siong week, with no internet access at the client's place, it may not be easy to get things done, but I pray that everything will be done quickly... I need to really get back into the mood of working le... Got some back log startin to pile up le... Got to clear them fast, if not my clients and mgrs will come n hound me soon man...

Need to go rest le... Realised that pictures speak louder than words, But i didnt take much photos in the past few days... Rach took some... When I was with her... So got to take the photos from her before I can post here... Yep, but to those who read finish the whole entry... U've endurance man... Hahaha... Next post shld be shorter... Heh...

10042008

2008-04-13T17:27:00.002+08:00

Hahaha... That was a great day, but i dun have time to blog abt it now... And I dun have the photos now so will update again... Need to go out for bday celebration le... Update soon...

An update: I failed...

2008-04-11T11:24:00.001+08:00

Yep, I failed my driving test yesterday, but nevertheless it was a great day... Yep... Hee... I'll update again soon...

I'm not very sad la, I knew I wouldnt pass la, Ken passed the 3rd time round, and b4 he took that test, he knows he's going to pass le. As in confident of driving le. But now I'm not also, so am alright... Even if I passed, I also wouldnt dared to drive on the roads, so i'm not ready yet... Hee... Just more lessons n practice ba... Yep... :)

Yawns...

2008-04-08T03:41:00.001+08:00

Ok ok, I packing up... going home le... still wide awake but cant do work le, mind shutted down... cos left one BIG file to clear... Points not that difficult and the mgr is much nicer... Hahaha...

I got to reach Orchard at 9am later... faints... God, u got to sustain me... I need to go thru this wk victorious... Ppl buck up k? Stand in the gap for me ya? Call up my ppl... Oh my mgr went home le also.. The light outside went off by itself... Means no one left le... Haiz... But oh well... I'm leaving too...

The song for now goes... Fear not, for I am with you... For I am with you... ... ...

AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-04-07T21:05:00.001+08:00

So angry, so angry... AAAAHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! Feel like just typing the letter and sending it to HR... Haiz... But cannot... I got to endure...

I got to be an overcomer... BONUS!!! Rrrrrrrr........ Bish bish bish... Ignore me... Just a horrible day... Haiz... NOT PMS!!! Hahahaha... Short week ahead... I got to pia... I can do it! Yeah!!!

A nite out after service...

2008-04-06T02:07:00.007+08:00

Today went to meet my cg ppl aft my driving... Didnt go svc today, but fellowshipped with them... Heh... We went to Holland V to relax... Went to this place called English Rose Cafe, it's at a corner, near the Essential O Brew, the party place that side one... Then there was a live band or rather a guy singing nice songs, those soothing love song kind, more blues n jazz kind. Not the techno, dance numbers that kind. Yep, so we ordered a few drinks n chatted la... Muz say the drinks not very nice, but the fellowship was fun. And we dedicated 2 songs n he sang them for us. One is beautiful tonight and another is first of may. Quite cheap la... Each person abt 11 like that. But well, the drinks are not that fantastic, but the music is nice. Probably we'll take milk shake the next time we head over... Heh... But conrad still the best... Heh... Photos of the drinks, nice colours though... Heh...

Zombie
I think the nicest drink for the nite, fruity taste...

Lychee Martini
Smallest portion, not very nice though... Hahaha...

Mojito with Meng's flash, looks discoloured... Hahaha...

Mojito
Minty... Fizzy...

Interesing name... Mai Tai
With less rum... Ok la, fruity also, similar with zombie but less alcohol...

Another angle of Mai Tai, the waitress put the straw da fan le, then cannot bend... Haha...

Strawberry Margarita
Looks nicest but tastes the weirdest... Hahaa...

Yep, then we went to eat rojak and drank tea b4 heading home on 198... I wanna go bangkok... Nvr been to Bangkok b4... I wanna go go go... Take me away!!! Hahaha...

I needa go start doing work le, played too hard this few days... Ken la, finished his FYP 1ST draft then so happy, wanna relax a bit... Dun wanna start other proj... Heh... But ok la, tml muz really do work le. Got dinner for the bday ppl in his family also... His dad on 1st, his on 11th and his mom's on 15th!!! Altogether in same month, so go celebrate altogether... Ok ok, back to work le...

"On the Anvil" review

2008-04-01T16:36:00.004+08:00

I picked this book up at the Attributes sales in Hall 2 during the easter weekend. It's the 1st book written by Max Lucado, the only book which his dad read before he passed away and also the 1st book that was written before he had any children...

It is a compilation of stories of ppl being shaped into God's image... I went to check the dictionary... Anvil...

an·vil (noun)
1a. A heavy block of iron or steel with a smooth, flat top on which metals are shaped by hammering.
1b. Something resembling an anvil, as in shape or function.
2. The fixed jaw in a set of calipers against which an object to be measured is placed.
3. Anatomy See incus.

Extracted from American Psychological Association (APA):
anvil. (n.d.). The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth Edition. Retrieved April 01, 2008, from Dictionary.com website: http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/anvil

I also found out that this word appears only once in the bible... In Isa 41:7.

Basically the books is divided into 3 sections, before, during and after being on the anvil... Hahaha... Let me quote from the introduction...

"In the shop of a blacksmith, there are three types of tools.
1. There are tools on the junkpile: outdated, broken, dull, rusty. They sit in the cobwebbed corner, useless to their master, oblivious to their calling.
2. There are tools on the anvil: melted down, molten hot, moldable, changeable. They lie on the anvil, being shaped by their master, accepting their calling.
3. There are tools of usefulness: sharpened, primed, defined, mobile. They lie ready in the blacksmith's tool chest, available to their master, fulfilling their calling."

This is true for us Christians as well... 3 categories...

"We are all somewhere in the blacksmith's shop. We are wither on the scrap pile, in the Master's hands on the anvil, or in the tool chest. (Some of us have been in all three.)
In this collections of writings, we'll take a tour of the "shop." We'll examine all tools and look in all corners. From the shelves to the workbench, from the water to the fire...
And I'm sure that somewhere you'll see yourself."

Yep, so if u're interested in borrowing the book... Wait for me to finish... I think i can finish in these 2-3 days... last section le... Heh... :)